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My Declan page of my book journal
have we considered aurora, having survived the death of cabeswater, going out on her own for nearly the first time in her life sometime during mid to late td3, and finding hennessy, who's so extremely like the man who made her that aurora almost can't help but fall at her feet because wasn't that what she was made to do (fall at the feet of a maker) (did niall dream catholicism into her?). and then hennessey, who's enduring the collapse of everything she loves, looking at aurora's face, which is the face of the dark lady (the thing she was hoping for so long would save her from the lace) but also not, and finding her new private orbital axis of codependency in the absence of jordan and the others. and then they can, i don't know, fuck about it
thinking about young declan spending his childhood at black markets with niall due to a comment from @cold--cut. what if declan was kind of the magic black market darling and treated indulgently, like how gansey was probably treated by his parents' friends and academics. niall's little mini-me swaggering after him, talking like niall if niall was a hedge-fund manager, barely flinching at threats and violence looking kinda proud of himself for withstanding it. it's almost endearing because it's a kid trying to be tough and make his dad proud in a situation that is way beyond him. people hand him money for niall like, "can you handle it, kid? it's a lot of money," just for gangly pre-teen declan to thumb through it and say, "sure, but this isn't that much money. about 5k short, i'd say." and they'd pay up instead of pulling a gun on him because hey, it's the kind of cheek that's amusing. for now. besides they can always take it out on lynch later if they felt like it. but if declan ever got to be too full of himself, too loud, too cocky with how he did business, like niall, then they'd love to be the ones to teach him a lesson.
LISTEN, he's being a good brother OK? he's read about positive reinforcement in the books and he wasn't sure what counted as "positive reinforcement" before but sexual rewards while he's sleeping seem to be doing the trick!
the lynches are weird about each other in ways that i think we do not talk enough about. some of declan's first few words to jordan, a girl he finds attractive, is "you remind me of my brother." like, dude, i think your gothic family vibes are showing. also technically, matthew was the addition to the family after aurora which would mean that the last two additions to the lynch family were both sweet, docile, beautiful and made to fit seamlesslyly into the existing lynch family. which is something that needs unpacking, i feel.
in some ways, ronan is like a niall that declan can get mad at and call an irresponsible father and matthew is like an aurora whose love he can accept and trust. he has to be responsible for them but they're also the closest thing he's ever going to have to a truly honest relationship to his parents. declan finding matthew's love easier to trust perhaps has to do with the fact that he did, in fact, grow up with matthew. he's seen matthew develop into who he is as a person whereas aurora would have just shown up one day looking like his mom who left him and claiming to love him.
"YOU REMIND ME OF MY BROTHER" "CONGRATULATIONS" "ON WHAT?" "ON HAVING SUCH A BEAUTIFUL BROTHER"
canon exchanges that give me brain damage, i can't believe that's actually on the page!!! now combine it with the 4 times that Ronan himself positions him and Declan as Matthew's parents or specifically refers to them as mommy and daddy and watch freud start frothing at the mouth and rolling in his grave
ok i swear i made a post about the Lynch family as true southern gothic horror but i cannot find it because tumblr hates me, but it was about how the dreamer/dream as parent/child metaphor renders the entire family incestuous by default and there's simply no getting out from under that. Aurora is, for all intents and purposes, Niall's child. she is, for all intents and purposes, Ronan's sister, and Matthew his child, and Declan is the only one of them who knows it and he just has to live with that knowledge and not even be able to speak about it to anyone, even the other people involved. the hazy romanticization of Aurora's favorite book being pygmalion, the inherent twisted irony of her being named after sleeping beauty, the way she has no identity of her own and shifts to reflect what her conversational partner needs, it's all just really and truly horrifying.
Matthew, at least, does not have that reflective quality. that's what makes him tangibly different from Aurora and what Declan picks up on. Matthew was essentially just "born" a little strangely, but he is his own person and he is capable of growth and change and he develops along normal person lines more or less, while Aurora was spawned into being to replace someone and was never truly meant to be a person in her own right. we really do (or at least i do) get the sense that Aurora wasn't designed to be independent, while with Matthew the feeling is more that he just hasn't needed to be yet.
i'm really upset that we didn't canonically get more exploration of the fact that Ronan is, essentially, a clone of his father. we never even really get Ronan getting confirmation of that on the page. Declan gets the information about Ronan's dreaming, but Ronan doesn't, and so the whole issue is just sidestepped, as if there isn't a fucking MOUNTAIN to unpack there!!!! Ronan and Declan both taking after their father in different ways and deviating from him in others, both representing something of him for each other that they can push back against. fighting each other because they can't fight a ghost.
every way you orient or arrange this family, there are truly fascinating dynamics to explore.
Ronan as Niall, the wayward dreamer and deadbeat dad, and Declan as Aurora, forcibly assigned caretaker with no means of escape
Declan as Niall, young parent doing a shit job of balancing personal trauma with criminal inclinations with actually parenting the vulnerable child dependent on him, and Matthew as Declan, the vulnerable child struggling to reconcile loving someone who has power over him and is in the process of hurting him with that power
Matthew as Aurora, a person built for the purpose of being loving struggling with insecurity and dependency on the person they didn't choose to love but do, and Ronan as Niall, the creator with no sense of the responsibility he should hold toward the people he creates or willingness to face the ethical nuances of what he's done
GOD THERE'S JUST SOOOOO MUCH

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Not attracted to that character i just want him to experience being scared for his life and panicking
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just consider mr gray meeting the new fenian… they’d go out for drinks after the shock wears off prob
i am SOOOOOO fucking sick of white gay fandom acting like the only Good Pure Acceptable gay media is shit written by white people in english while all other queer asian stories are just evil stinky BLyaoi sexualized fetishization slop made by disgusting fujoshi (read: ASIAN) women with no soul or heart or conscious, meaningful thought put behind it. because clearly only white people are capable of meaningfully engaging with queer stories and the experiences of homophobia and gender. because clearly only White People are capable of thinking critically about the societal standards of the place they fucking live in. obviously. of course. sure we like anime and manga but CLEARLY it could never reach the intellectual and literary heights of Stories Written By White Guys!!!1!1!! wdym that’s a “racial bias,” obviously racism only ever applies to all the black people slavery stuff. america has always been the center of the world. asian women are just naturally evil and intellectually lesser and only write queer stories for their nasty sinful horny desires. uuiguruuruehh
ok but like… there’s something sooo buzzy about reading trc/tdt as a domestic gothic, especially w the lynch family?? like hennessey’s lace as something that grew out of the trauma of her parents’ marriage and just stuck to her. and declan throwing the wedding ring down the drain?? and then the doubles?? hennessey/jordan, mor/aurora… the softer versions of them...what they could’ve been if none of it happened. idk it’s just… the house is still there but something is deeply, fundamentally wrong with it.
i neeed to write declan's no good very bad senior year at aglionby. a tragedy in twelve parts and in all of them he's going through it.
I'll have you know I was "a pleasure to have" in the torture dungeon

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do you guys think kevin and riko had to like. take the sat/act/whatever. i mean not that it would've mattered. but i would love to see unhinged high school aged kevriko go through that
as far as i remember they don't really talk about declan's graduation from aglionby in trc (why would they) but i Have to imagine it was bad for him
something that doesn't really fit in the canon timeline but that i think would be uniquely horrible for declan is if the only person who knew him who also showed up to his graduation ceremony was the gray man scoping him out in preparation to beat him up like a month afterwards