The Bookish Psychologist.

there are nights I could

grab my own throat and

force the life out of

myself. Then

there are days I wish

I could give me a hug.

This is the duality I must

live with; constantly loathing

and loving—a lost thing

in the maze of me.

Drink your coffee, embrace the silence, do not take people seriously, do not take life upon yourself, do not exaggerate your emotions, and do not please anyone against your will.

I read books by authors who died centuries ago and I often wonder if I will ever find similar souls in my present who can educate and inspire me.

ARE YOU HAPPY, YOKO TARO????

(he's probably happy)

Also I needed the rescue offer which.... didn't help the amount of

I also chose to save a life at the end.

....

so.....

basically...

It was something I wasn't prepared for. And I'm really really struggling with how supportive these unknown faceless people are.

There is no way to thank them at all. And I love them all so much.

1. See each day as a fresh start and a new beginning.

2. Don’t be a copy of anybody else. Enjoy discovering and being your true self.

3. Be proactive, take control and look for opportunities. You’ve only got one life so make sure you stay in control.

4. Don’t focus on the obstacles or things you cannot change. Just ask yourself “What next? or else “What can I do instead?”

5. Appreciate your limits and then set clear boundaries. You need to care for yourself, to be the best ‘you’ you can be.

6. Decide on your values and what matters most to you. Then live in a way that’s consistent with those values.

7. Don’t put life on hold as the months turn into years … and there’s always the chance that some important doors will close.

8. Set goals for yourself – then plan the steps to take you there.

9. Learn from other people who you value as role models – but ignore the negative and the hypercritical.

I don’t want to cause any suffering but

I know I do.

I panic.

Think twisty thoughts. i

Say things in my darkness that is not what I want to feed others.

I float separated from my people.

I spend my time talking to the plants, the bugs. Clay. Elk. Mushrooms.

I miss my community.

It’s been 500 years.

I refuse to be that which destroyed us.

I wish we had a place we

Agreed to meet after the

End

If you goal is to love yourself, then your focus is directed inward toward yourself, and you end up constantly watching yourself from the outside, disconnected, trying to summon the “correct” feelings towards yourself or fashion yourself into something you can approve of.

If your goal is to love being yourself, then your focus is directed outward towards life, on living and making decisions based on what brings you pleasure and fulfillment.

1. Forgive yourself. You aren’t perfect. No one is. Recognise that beating yourself up will only make things worse. Instead, forgive yourself, and then decide to just move on.

2. Focus on motivation. Without motivation, you can’t do anything. It’s much more powerful than self-discipline. So when things get tough, remind yourself of why life will be better if you reach your goal.

3. Make it easy. Discipline is tough so remove some obstacles. For example, if you’re having a hard time exercising, make it super easy by just doing 5 minutes to start with. If you can make that change for 30 days in a row, you’ll have developed a new habit.

4. Focus on enjoyment. It’s hard to push yourself — and to have self-discipline — when you hate doing something, or you see it as a drag. So do whatever you can to create a sense of fun. For example, if you don’t like exercise, find some good music, or a workout partner, and focus on that part of the activity.

5. Repeat. You’ll almost inevitably slip up from time to time, no matter how good, and committed, you are. Just get up, get going, and keeping marching straight ahead.