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Happy 2nd wedding anniversary, my love. There’s no one else I’d rather do life with than you. Thank you for always loving me perfectly. 💖 @beavedawg8712 #husband #anniversary #love #marriage https://www.instagram.com/p/CBhaWYzjObM/?igshid=hzns642z319l

We lost our sweet baby angel, Taj Marie, this February. It was one of the hardest moments of our lives. Something to know about Taj: She rarely went anywhere without a bandana. She had a stack of all kinds of options depending on her mood and occasion, of course. And her loving grandma made sure they were always washed and pressed. So when it came time for me to decide what to give Jessi for our 2nd wedding anniversary, I knew I wanted a blanket made from all of Tajy’s bandanas. This idea was made perfect when I learned that the second year wedding gift is supposed to be cotton! Kathy gave me the number of a woman who has made memory blankets for her in the past. Cynthia was warm, loving, and super easy to work with. Not to mention the turn around time! I gave her the bandanas and picked up the blanket within two weeks! Also, the cherry on an already incredible blanket was that she made a pillow from the extra bits of bandanas just because 💖 The care she puts into her work is not only seen but felt. I couldn’t help but give Jessi his anniversary gift immediately. I wanted him to be able to wrap up in a little bit of Taj every time he missed her. Not bragging.... but I think I did good! #anniversary #memoryblanket #handmade #love #furbaby #tajmarie #wemissyou https://www.instagram.com/p/CAltGLrjDBX/?igshid=ib46nbvz6a7q

“If I fits I sits” brought to you by Steven D. Beaver. 🐱💝📦 #catsofinstagram #furbaby #lifewithSteven #lol #hedidthis https://www.instagram.com/p/CARqlRPgsjR/?igshid=fw45c2maiv37

Pink beans for days. 💖🌸🌷🎀💕💝 #catsofinstagram #catlife #StevenDBeaver #acatnamedSteven #pinkbeans #toebeans https://www.instagram.com/p/B_3QvGwjbbV/?igshid=10x25y0k25ssu

Missin muh frands. 🥺💔 #friends #hoodrathomies #twasagoodnight #imissdraftbeer (at Four Quarter Bar) https://www.instagram.com/p/B_2o48OjwdC/?igshid=1eadzb6nr5mnc

11 years babe! This is still one of my favorite days of the year when this memory pops up. I’m so grateful to God for His timing in our relationship. He knew we weren’t ready then, so He waited until it was perfect. I love you more and more with every passing day. #repost #love #timehop #happy #marriage https://www.instagram.com/p/B-7Led3j7o-/?igshid=1vn76slu26hj4

#selfie ✌🏼💖 drawn by the oldest Norwood girl child @hollynorwood @kylenorwood1144 #art #kidsart #friendskidsarethebest https://www.instagram.com/p/B-28uJrDqxl/?igshid=joumy78nvqco

Quarantine naps 💞 #catdad #cuddles #myfamily #sohappy #furbaby #StevenDBeaver #myheart https://www.instagram.com/p/B-DN-1GjGEo/?igshid=1mv8t2ci09poh

Hey... so a little distraction from the end of times... We rescued the cutest little baby kitty about a week and a half ago! World, meet Steven. 💖🐱 #catsofinstagram #rescuecat #kittylove https://www.instagram.com/p/B95OfC7Alzh/?igshid=15fhjymomy6bi

Playing in makeup is my therapy. 💜💟 #motd #abhbrows #jeffreestarcosmetics #makeuplover #metime https://www.instagram.com/p/B9U5gvoAUrp/?igshid=ame7rhi5a6zw

Got my first #VoxBox from Influenster today! I received over $100 worth of #ABH brow products for FREE 😳😳😳 Here’s some side by sides of me trying it out. I really love the brow gel. It’s probably my fav product from the box. #ABHBrows #eyebrows #brows #contest #complimentary @anastasiabeverlyhills @Influenster https://www.instagram.com/p/B9U3ETbAgcu/?igshid=e7dknph9um4o

Happy Birthday to my handsome husband! Thank you for making me laugh every day, for being the strength I need, for your shoulder when I cry, for always being my arm candy, and for loving me so perfectly. I hope you have an amazing day and an amazing weekend! 💖 #birthday #husband #luckygirl #lml https://www.instagram.com/p/B8zIrIdAIqb/?igshid=4nllzly59mml

It’s this crazy lady’s birthday today!! Seriously though, she’s one of my best friends whom I have come to lean on heavily. She is a sister in Christ and a sister in literally everything else. I’m so grateful to call her “framily”. 👯‍♀️💖 #friend #BFF #birthday #whosturnisit #its yourturnholly https://www.instagram.com/p/B8H1AjvgE-O/?igshid=1js8203ymnd65

Our sweet girl is on the mend! We picked her up from the emergency vet this morning and took her to Dr. Paul. He said she’s going to be just fine! A couple of supplements to help her liver and her joints are hopefully all she’ll need for a little while. Thank you to everyone who prayed, reached out to us, and sent happy thoughts to our baby angel. 💖 #TajMarie #furbaby #family #powerofprayer https://www.instagram.com/p/B71hpiFAK5-/?igshid=1g4t747sa5zsu

Our sweetest baby angel, Taj Marie, is fighting her butt off to get better. We had the biggest scare of our lives last night with her and rushed her to the ER. She is in excellent hands and seems to be doing much better. Jessi and I had a chance to visit with her this afternoon. She looked so much better than when we left her. Please keep our precious girl and our family in your prayers. She is one of the most loved members of the Beaver family. Our lives are so much fuller and happier when she’s around. #furbaby #tajmarie #family #ourheart https://www.instagram.com/p/B7zUhHBA9Rd/?igshid=181p4agipdrbk

Welcome to the downhill slope of your 30s. @heartfelt_hippie #biffle #bff #ilikesoup #istilllikedrinkingthough #36goingon21 #whyarewelikethis https://www.instagram.com/p/B7jYgfSgorD/?igshid=zzfzckdwi77v

I really do love this crazy, goofy, fun, amazing, loving, perfectly imperfect, generous, playful, beautiful family of mine. #family #holidays2019 #love #happiness (at Little Rock Air Force Base, Arkansas) https://www.instagram.com/p/B61-RNPgkhq/?igshid=sxdzsvswwcv9