Cloudless Rain

A lot of times, putting in the starting blocks is the hardest part

Feeling a little like a god, deciding where I'll place the start

Where is breathe to begin, through what means

I become paralyzed in indecision, scared of a wrong step

A sketch, a simple box, a few words down, that's the start

Color in later, erase and delete if you need

Just show yourself there's hope and begin

Don't judge your work before it was even born

Let your mind, intuition explode, let it all fall

Putting down the starting blocks is good enough

The horizon still shines with bad pans, yaicks...

Observe your own big bang

I pray for the world to burn down

For the aftermath of humankind, for us to be gone

We debate on how to save this home yet we miss the point

We are the disease, the species that needs to go extinct

For this planet to live and thrive, we must be out (that's how)

There has to be a dramatic turnaround

A birth of a new world requires death

Erasure of all that we know

If we truly love our home, we let her go

We realize the solution isn't in us, It's without us here

I love this magical place dearly, amazing beyond my understanding

And I see I'm hurting her, we all hurt, why are we doing all this

Conquering more soil, consuming nature's springborns, all for what?

We give nothing back, flying around bringing destruction and pain to the one that actually cares, how are we not ashamed

I pray for this world to end

Not met by anyone, not looked at from the ground?

Unforgettable moments

Unforgettable views

Always in use

Always (my) muse

I can hear your piano playing

Those chords remind me of

The softness of your touch

Your passion spikes in melodic bombs

You're a timeless piece

Always with me in every way

A picture in my wallet

A note in my songs

A permanent actor in my storyline

I can never know how you'll show

But it's known you will

As you're mine

I'm your timeless high

Unforgettable moments

Unforgettable views

As you're mine

Darkness wraps around me

I'm darkness

On the watch

Threads of past wrap around my throat

I'm speaking into the void

No sound is heard around

An anamoly of hidden thoughts

Darkness sips into me

Waiting to break my bones

Skream from my blood

Loud as the star spark

No fogg, no dream,

I'm dormant in my veins

Pulsating with regret and fear

Pushing myself through the heart

Break free you rat

No more hiding in plain sight

I'm huge, I'm the universe in blood

Love me till death

Love me beyond touch and smell

Love me when we are just souls

I was preparing to die

all this time

but now I need to live

as me as really me now

That's exciting and terrifying

I didn't take care of myself of my body

I was just a shell

surviving each day

like it's a climb to my everest death

praying for the end of the world

to come and burn in company

In unison.

Years and hours in my head

Thinking, consuming myself

Non-stop questioning

Why am I here?

Why didn't I disappear

when my heart was weak?

I was held here

Made to be who I don't know

A play I didn't write

But somehow I'm the star...

No shine, no sparkle

Just a demone in disguise.

A moment of silence

A moment of honestly

Breaking through with a truth

I always knew

I said it out loud

Am I aloud to want all that?

Is it another play I'm running towards?

It's myself I never saw

Seems like a dream I drew in my tears

I finally see

It was so blurry all this time

I was ok with the lose of sight

I was preparing to die

Now, I drink,

I eat,

rain and ice

Watching the Trees pass by

Watching the sit change

Scenery becomes the dream

The hope is beyond the window

Just a hand a way

Inhaling and believing

It's right here in front of me

Dying won't make me believe

Touching the trees

Seeing the lights

Hearing the tongue

Yellow flowers bloom everywhere,

It makes me smile so silly,

It's strange how seasones change and everything changes too,

the planats move too

I've felt stuck for so long, everything and everyone moving past me,

like a movie rolling past,

I couldn't catch it and go too,

I felt like I was drawning in reality,

Drawning in the shuttered hopes and dreams,

It all felt too much to handle,

Where and how would I even continue?

I Had no answers, no sight,

There was a huge pitch black nothingness ahead

So what do I do when staying sucks but moving seems worst,

I blew up in to pieces

Scattered everywhere were my parts of me

Can I catch and find them all now,

Can I rebuild myself better this time,

Is it worth the pain?

Pulsating heart is a sign

Skys in my new home,

Temporary maybe,

But it's mine for this time.

Clouds flying past blue and green sky.

Same animal shapes but

so different none the less.

Watching people pass through

my window, same but not.

Feeling the trees tall on me,

feeling them shuffle above me.

Smelling the air,

smells of cooking in culture form.

Trying to speak is scary,

I'm terrified,

What if I'm terribly bad.

Speaking still, it's my home now,

Everything will settle and rise in time.

My new adventure is here,

Open eyes, open ears, open heart.

I miss your hands wrapped around me,

I've never felt them on my skin

but your presence is in my bones.

Burning, longing, no words can show the beauty of the chaos in my chest.

Fire isn't scorching enough, I feel more,

More than anything, more than waterfalls hitting the low.

My blood seems to race and stop all at once,

I didn’t notice when my breathing got caught.

I feel you on my cheek, the warmth is there but your breath is far.

The flash in my eyes when I remember your scent that I've never drank before, but desperately crave oh so much more now.

Your skin pressed to my heart,

Your sight on me,

a black hole with forgotten waters.

Memories of future keep me locked in those eyes.

The current won't let me move aggenst the flow.

You call my soul.

You pull at my soul's strings.

I move towards you in every exhale.

My mind keeps lying to me,

The dream is fading,

But your essence stays,

It's you and me woven in time,

In dimensions,

Exploring the universe on our night walk,

Smelling your perfume of passion and drive,

Hearing our eyes meeting in the clouds.

You're in my bones, in my DNA,

I'm in your dreams, in your shine.

We walk alone together,

We walk towards each other.

Our journey is timeless, an explosion of stars.

Debris won't slow us down.

Silence,

My friend and enemy.

I've known you so well,

So long we have been one.

You absorbed my faith,

Absorbed my darkest thoughts.

You witnessed my spark die,

You were there, when sun is out,

When room is dark.

My pain was shown in you,

but no one saw.

You keep it to yourself,

I was glad I had a friend, to explode into.

But you caged me in myself,

Made me blind to my voice.

Blind to my depth.

I honer your presence in me,

You're a diamond I carve with care.

But I have myself to create, to show.

Silence, thank you,

How can you see me exposed and stay,

How can you see me this bare and love.

I've always hidden my true laugh from the air.

I always thought it was too much,

Too loud, too real to hear.

My eyes, I couldn't keep them on the sun,

I wanted to so much,

But it burns when I try every time.

Eyes are dangerous for reading all,

I feel exposed and alive and whole.

That scares me like a ghost.

The ghost of lifetimes coming home to my soul, reuniting severed links we've built over cloudless storms.

How could you see me exposed and stay,

Electricity lines hanging off an orange tree.

Energy center flowing to all directions.

Tall orange heart adorned with sparks beating through the golden sap.

Through day light charging, empowering, that heart.

When the night comes,

It's a beacon of light to the forest life.

A single touch, a hug energizes,

bursting cells rushing the blood.

I traveled far to find you, my beautiful tree.

You bring memories back.

I'm here to recover my path,

Help me rebuild my sight,

Your bright orange speaks to my laugh.

Finding through your sweetest sap how to love my biter parts.

I feel your bark rough on my palm,