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i may not understand, but i stand. i stand with you.

i’m struggling. it’s hard for me to admit it but i’m struggling. a lot. being home all day because of covid i have no control over what i eat and how much i eat. during my normal school routine i would often do a 24 hour fast, have a 2 hour eating period and then do another 24 hour fast. i lost 15lbs. i felt great. i was tired, my hair was falling out more than usual, i had a constant headache and my anxiety was through the roof. but i looked good. and lacrosse season was about to start so i could exercise every. single. day. and then my whole entire schedule was thrown out the window. destroyed. now i stay at home all day. i don’t have the motivation to exercise. i have gained 15lbs back. my face is not defined anymore. my hip bones don’t stick out like they did. i eat 3 meals a day and snacks too. i feel like fucking shit. i really and truly hate myself for this. i don’t know what to do, where to turn. i just want to lose weight.