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i am a writer of speculative fiction, a poet on occasion, and artist. you'll find a smattering of all those things here, along with other musings from me. i enjoy dabbling in many different genres to challenge myself, but spec fiction is my bread and butter.
my work is for anyone who has something trapped inside of them that is trying to claw its way out; for anyone seeking catharsis veiled in a world that is fantastical as it is gritty. it doesn't have to be pretty. there is no right way to feel it.
i am a novelist-in-progress! my current WIP, the russet dragon, is a high fantasy that explores themes of environmentalism, gender roles, trust, and how the values we are taught to have can misalign with our authentic selves. as well as drafting this project, i am working on short stories, vignettes, and poems that i may share here.
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Pyrohi. The word comes from the center of my throat, the âohâ syllable gliding along the roof of my mouth before it softens with the âhee.â Its pronunciation is as doughy as the yeast that's expanding in my grandmotherâs wooden bowl from 1980. When itâs ready, she flattens the dough with her squeaky rolling pin and I use an upside down glass from the cupboard to carve perfect circles the size of my palm out of it. Drop no more than a spoonful of mashed potatoes into the center of those little beige sphericals. Add just a pinch of sharp orange cheddar. Dip the end of my middle finger into a tiny, pristine glass bowl of waterâone that is far too fancy for the task at handâand wet the edges of the circle of dough. Pinch it closed into a little dumpling. Try to pick the flour out from under my fingernails even though theyâll be caked again within seconds.
Under my breath, I mumble the word again. Pyrohi. Polish-sounding, but Ukrainian. Linguistic overlap is a funny thing. Grandma tells me that farther east, they call it varenyky. It sounds lovely. But pyrohi comes to my lips easier.
The forest sang with the song of early summer. Sunlight filtered through the lush green canopy that hung high over Kalynaâs head, dappling the forest floor. Happy to abandon her usual furs for the next few months, she relished in the pockets of golden warmth. Her hand curled tight around the smooth wood of her bow, pleased to have also discarded her gloves for the season, for they had always hindered her aim. Â
Ahead, her sonâs sand-blond hair caught the light as he surveyed the woods teeming with life. The young man never strayed more than a few paces behind the woman leading the hunt: his grandmother, Oroteya, broad-shouldered and keen-eyed despite her age. As he walked, he mirrored her intentional, soundless steps.
Twigs snapped and rained down around Kalyna. She knew the cause before looking up into the gnarled branches overhead. Â
âVesna,â she said. âCome down, girl.â
The foliage rustled with her young daughterâs descent. The child had bits of tree bark stuck in her fingernails when she reached the ground. âSorry, Ama,â she whispered without looking an inch apologetic. A few stray leaves were caught in the wild dark curls of her hair that she inherited from Kalyna.
âLight feet, remember?â Kalyna said. âLike this.â She took Vesnaâs small hand in her own, modeling steps that fell quietly. Â
Vesna copied her motherâs stride with the gait of a newborn fawn, whispering to herself, âLight feet, light feetâŚâ
âRemind me why you brought her again,â muttered the pale-haired son up ahead.
âThis is how she learns, Damir,â Kalyna replied. Vesna was too occupied with her own stride to pay any mind to her teenage brotherâs comment. âSheâs six. You were no different at her age.âÂ
Damir rolled his eyes. To his motherâs relief, he spared her any further expression of displeasure.
Among a clan of hunters young and old, Novitska children knew the woods as they knew their parents and siblings. Kalyna had ventured into the forest with her bow and arrows and an infant Damir swaddled to her back more than once. She had done the same with little Vesna, just as Oroteya had done with her, and a hundred mothers had done before her.
Oroteya muttered something to Damir then, allowing him to lead the rest of the way to the elk herd. Kalyna smiled seeing her sonâs eyes brighten, how he straightened his spine to puff out his chest a little.
The afternoon sun had only passed a marginal distance across the sky when the young man signaled stop. The hunters stood just short of where the trees thinned into a narrow clearing. Through the thick undergrowth lining the perimeter, Kalyna glimpsed bulky dark brown shapes, some crowned with great branching antlers. She laid a hand on Damirâs shoulder and squeezed, a wordless expression of pride. Her other hand kept a firm hold on Vesnaâs to keep her from wandering.
She shared a look with Oroteya before the matriarch slipped away to the north side of the clearing with her own bow and arrows, her gray-streaked braid vanishing into the greenery. Damir slunk off to the south, a spear in hand. Kalyna paused, waiting for the wind. The breeze hit the front of her face, stirring the flyway strands of hair that the twin braids down her back could not hold. As long as the wind did not change course, her scent would be hidden from the elk.
She surveyed the surrounding trees then, noting their low-hanging branches. âUp,â she whispered to Vesna, letting go of her tiny hand.
Despite her youth and frequent inattentiveness, her daughter knew the routine at this stage of the hunt. Climb out of range of any arrows, keep quiet, and wait for the signal to descend. The moss blanketing much of the treeâs bark absorbed any sounds Vesnaâs shoes might have made as she scrambled up and along one thick branch.
Kalyna made a conscious effort to pull her focus away from her child and to the elk. Careful to avoid brushing against the foliage around her, she withdrew an arrow from the quiver at her hip and nocked it.
The herd grazed along the shore of a river, a winding ribbon of frothing blue that cut through the clearing. On the southern edge, it dropped off a rocky slope. Stalking through the undergrowth, Kalyna found a gap in the flora just large enough to let an arrow fly through without obstruction.
An elk strolled within range. The huntress drew the bowstring taut to her cheek with slow, even breaths.
Then an airy gasp from above cut through the air, so quiet she almost missed it. Â
Vesna?
Trees creaked overhead and a winged, verdant green beast descended into the clearing.
Reverence tinged with fear gripped Kalyna. Â
Dragon.
A reptilian shriek came from the opposite side of the clearing and a second dragon burst into view. The two collided as the first dragon snagged one frenzied elk in its talons. Dirt and grass exploded into the air when they hit the ground, wrestling in a tangle of wings, claws, and lashing barbed tails.
Sacred as the beasts were to her clan, Kalyna knew better than to remain a close spectator to a battle between dragons. She called out for Vesna over the din of territorial roars, trying to spot the girl among the trees before a massive green wing came crashing through her shield of undergrowth, sending her flying off her feet. Her skull narrowly missed the thick trunk of a tree.
She lurched upright with a ragged noise as soon as the sky stopped spinning. Though her lungs heaved, struggling to regain her breath, Kalyna called for Vesna again. With a flare of panic, she swore she heard a scream somewhere in the chaos.
A flash of familiar blond hair in her peripheral caught her attention next. Damir raced into the clearing.Â
The huntressâs heart plummeted past her feet like a heavy stone dropped in a lake. âDamir!â she shouted, equal parts furious and petrified. Â
By now, the elk herd had escaped the skirmishing dragons, save for the one punctured by dragon claws and one other that lay sprawled in the grass with a spear between its ribs.
âDamir, leave it!â Kalyna implored, bolting into the clearing. âLeave it!â
There was no way for him to hear her. The ground shook with the rage of two dragons. The slim shadow of a third glided over the grass. Damir dove when one of the beastâs tails whipped over his head, dodging the venomous barbs spiked along it. Where dragons among the trees were concerned, their venom was a fate worse than fire.Â
Kalyna called Damirâs name again, so loud it strained her throat.
The young man was too occupied with pulling the elk carcass over his shoulders to notice the barbed tail lashing toward him again. It struck him hard in the chest, sending him toppling across the ground and down the rocky slope by the river.
Kalyna screamed. She launched herself down the slope after her son, hands scrabbling against jagged stone in her frantic descent. The resulting cuts opening across her palms were far from her mind with Damir lying motionless below. Though her mind raced and her face was wet with tears, she refused to let her voice break when she reached him. âDamir? Damir!â
Relief crashed into her like water burst from a dam when her son groaned and tried to sit up. By some miracle, no barbs had punctured his clothes. âMaâŚ?â he rasped, bleary-eyed and leaning on shaky elbows.
âDonât move,â she said upon noticing the iridescent sheen of venom smeared across the leather vest he wore over his shirt. âAre you bleeding anywhere?â She felt foolish as soon as the words left her mouth. If even a drop of venom had entered Damirâs bloodstream, he would not be moving nor speaking.
He answered, âMy headâŚI think.â He stopped himself from touching the back of his skull. âBut my leg is definitely broken.â Gritting his teeth, he indicated the appendage twisted awkwardly out in front of him. The leather knee and thigh guards strapped to his legs also shone with venom. Â
Kalyna steeled herself against the guilt that dragged through her. âLetâs get these off you, quickly.â
âWait, Ma, your hands,â Damir protested, his gaze falling to her bleeding palms.
âDonât worry about me,â she said as she pulled a long knife from its sheath at her hip, slicing the threads and buttons that closed his vest over his torso. Once that was done, she used the blade to push the garment off of Damirâs shoulders, allowing him to wriggle free. She did the same to the padding over his knees and thighs, cutting through the straps that held them in place and tossing them aside with the knife.
Oroteyaâs hoarse voice rang out then. âKalyna! Damir!â she exclaimed, making her way down the slope. âOh, thank theââ She stopped midsentence as she reached the bottom, her expression falling. âWhere is Vesna?â
âSheâs not with you?â Kalyna asked, panic surging as she whirled to face her mother. She noticed that the commotion of battling dragons was gone.
Oroteya shook her head, dread settling deep in her features.
Kalyna sprung to her feet. âHelp him into the river, wash off any excess venom,â she told Oroteya. Were her youngest child not missing, she would never have barked orders at the matriarch. âIâm going to find her.â
Oroteya said, âThe dragons may haveââ
âDo not finish that sentence, Ma.â Â
Kalyna wasted no time climbing back up the rocks, returning to the ravaged clearing. I lost my daughter, she thought. I canât believe I lost my daughter. Fear, shame, and guilt threatened to paralyze her as dragon venom would, but she would not stop until Vesna was found. Â
Miraculously, she found her bow lying in the grass. In the chaos of the moments before, she had not realized she had dropped it. She swiped it up as she ran by, a few more arrows left in her quiver.
âVesna!â the woman bellowed, sprinting into the trees and searching the canopy for any flash of wild black curls and light brown skin. âVesna, where are you?â
Her panic reached its crest when a high-pitched, girlish squeal pierced the air.
âVesna!â Kalyna gasped. Following her daughterâs scream, she notched an arrow to her bowstring. Vesnaâs cry rang out again. The sound was met with a reptilian grumble. Â
âNo!â Kalyna shrieked, every nerve alight with fire. She burst through the wall of tall ferns separating her from her petrified and possibly mangled daughter.
But that was not what she found waiting on the other side.
The huntress gawked at the scene before her, stopping herself before she could let the arrow fly. Where she expected blood and horror, there was Vesna, whole, squealing not in terror but with the infectious joy she was known for. Her small hands reached for the canopy overhead, or rather for the slender green dragon bounding through the trees and raining leaves down around her.
âVesna,â Kalyna panted, relieved only for a heartbeat before fear lanced through her again. She pulled the bowstring taut once more, aiming for the dragon. Blasphemous as it was to harm one, she could not allow it to hurt both of her children. âGet away from there, girl.â
The child did not share her motherâs fear. âAma!â she exclaimed, pointing at the dragonâs slim form weaving through the branches above. âAma, look!â
âI see the dragon, dear,â Kalyna replied, struggling to maintain gentleness through her rising anxiety. She strode toward her daughter but kept her aim on the beast. âStep away from it. Itâs not safe.â
The dragon turned its yellow eyes on her then, its lip curling with a growl. Slithering through the branches to hang lower, it stretched its long neck toward Kalyna, studying her, forked tongue darting out between its fangs.
âNo, Ama, sheâs my friend,â Vesna said, pulling on her motherâs sleeve. Her assurance did nothing to help Kalynaâs thundering heart, nor did her pulling cause her aim to falter. âSula wonât hurt me, she saved me.â
The dragonâs low hiss suggested otherwise. âIt is not your friend, Vesna,â Kalyna snapped, stepping forward to shield her daughter. âI donât care what name youâve given it. It hurt your brother; I wonât let it hurt you too.â Â
The dragon hissed again. The huntress snarled back at it, âStay away from my daughter.â
âNo, Ama!â Vesna pleaded, yanking on her arm again. âDonât hurt Sula!â
Curse this childâs misplaced kindness and overactive imagination! she thought.
The dragon gnashed its teeth and Kalyna loosed the arrow aimed for its right eye, ignoring Vesnaâs wail in protest. The beast arced its neck to the side, letting the arrow zip past one of its spiraled horns. Its pupils shrank to the width of a hairpin and its jaws opened to release an ear-splitting screech.
âRun, Vesna!â Kalyna shouted, already nocking another arrow.
The little girl instead threw herself against her mother, grunting in effort as her tiny hands grasped for the bow, trying to pry it free from Kalynaâs grip. Stunned, Kalyna staggered, attempting to shake her daughter off of her. As angry as she was bewildered, she cried, âWhat has gotten into you, child?â
âI said donât hurt her!â Vesna snapped, ferocious as a six-year-old could manage. Seizing the wood of her motherâs bow with an iron grip, the force of her writhing sending them both toppling to the ground. âYouâre scaring Sula! Stop it!â
âIâm trying to protect you!â Kalyna said. Her heart lurched when the dragon landed on nimble claws mere paces away from them.
Vesna argued, âShe wonât hurt me!â
Incredulous and frenzied with adrenaline, Kalyna cried, âHow do you know?â
âBecause she told me!â
âThe dragon canât tell you anything, not unless youâreââ Kalynaâs sentence fell off, the shock of her daughterâs words dulling her agitation.
âBut she did, Ama. She told it to me herself.â Vesna turned to the dragon, who stopped its circling around them to hold the girlâs gaze with rapt attention. âShe doesnât believe me,â she whined to the beast. âTell her, Sula.â
Kalyna paled. No, her mind whispered. No, she couldnât haveâŚsheâs too young.
The dragon paused, ears twitching beneath its horns as its eyes darted from mother to child. Kalyna noticed its pupils dilate when its gaze fell on Vesna, all traces of its earlier hostility melting away. Â
âOhâŚshe canât hear you?â Vesna said, her lips forming a disappointed pout when she looked back at Kalyna. âThatâs sad.â
âI donât understand,â Kalyna said, keeping a firm grip on her bow, her other hand hovering at her hip, ready to grab an arrow at any moment. âIs sheâŚâ She swallowed hard, the words catching in her throat. âYou can understand her, Ves?â
âYes, Ama, I told you,â she said. âSulaâs my friend.â
âAnd youâŚyou did not name her?â
âNo. I already told you, she told me her name.â
âAfter she rescued me,â Vesna answered, closing the distance of a few paces between her and the dragon. The beast dipped its headâas large as Vesnaâs whole bodyâand allowed her to collide with its snout and wrap her little arms around it. The girl continued, âWhen those big dragons came, I fell out of my hiding spot, but Sula caught me.â The dragon blinked slowly, rumbling deep in its throat as if to affirm the story. âShe saved me, and then she asked if I wanted to play. She likes playing in the trees, just like me.â
Were she not already sitting on her knees, Kalyna might have fallen to them. This was no product of her daughterâs overactive imagination.
For a long moment, she watched Vesna interact with the summery-green beast. The deadly barbs of its tail lay flat and relaxed, curled up by its side. Its scales gleamed where it caught the sunlight, bright and healthy.
This dragon had not been one of the fighters before; it hadnât the wounds or blood-stained claws to show for it. As her adrenaline began to subside, Kalyna noticed it was also smaller than the previous two. Â
An adolescent? she wondered.
Then she recalled the shadow of a third dragon that had passed over her head in the clearing. Of course.
Her fear and fury began to slough away, gratitude creeping in to take their place. She let go of her bow.
âKalyna!â Oroteyaâs voice broke her from her trance. The older woman staggered through the ferns with Damir leaning heavily against her side. âI heardââ She stopped as soon as her eyes found Vesna playing with her dragon. Â
Damir cursed under his breath. âIs sheâŚ?â he began, trailing off.
âShe is,â murmured Kalyna. She turned her tearful gaze to Oroteya. âI thought she was too young toâŚâ
The matriarch shook her head, her dark eyes never leaving her grandchild and her new companion. Sula wriggled in the grass on her back, wings flaring while Vesna giggled and dashed around her in a circle.
âA bond can be forged at any age,â Oroteya said. âItâs the dragon who chooses the human.â
One tear slipped down Kalynaâs cheek. âIâm not ready to lose her,â she whispered.
âYou will not,â said Oroteya, her free hand reaching down to stroke the back of Kalynaâs head. âBecoming dragonbound will not erase your daughterâs need for you. She has gained a new protector today; the best any of us could ask for.â
More tears fell, though not only in grief.
A long moment passed before Kalyna rose and padded over to the bonded pair, wiping her eyes. Surveying Sula cautiously, if only out of habit, she knelt down to her daughterâs level. Â
âVesna, my girl, come here,â she beckoned softly, voice made raspy by the heavy lump still stuck in her throat. She pulled the child tight to her chest, hoping she would not notice her glistening eyes. âIâm sorry. Iâm so very sorry for the way I acted. I was justâŚI was scared for you, dear.â
âItâs okay, Ama,â Vesna responded, curling her arms around her motherâs waist. âSula was scared too.â
Kalyna kissed the top of her head, running tan fingers through her youngestâs wild curls. âYou can tell her, too, that Iâm sorry.â
Vesna craned her neck to meet the dragonâs golden gaze. âMy Ama says sheâs sorry,â she told the beast. Â
Sula grunted in reply, tail swishing behind her. Â
Author's Note: This short story is set in the universe of my novel WIP, The Russet Dragon, detailing a significant event in the backstory of one of the side characters, Vesna. It was my first take at writing in this world!
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i love you oxford comma i love you em dashes i love you single quotes within double quotes i love you indentation il ove you letters i love you writing i love you words
so when you finally end this silent, scathing torment
on a day whenever it suits you
i forget the pain
and all I can feel is relief
Author's Note: This poem was featured on Eclipse Literary Magazine's website for a few weeks as a poetry contest winner. To read another poem of mine, Fingernails, check out their White Noise: Vol. II issue!
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As a writing exercise, I wrote a journal entry from the point of view of Natalya Crestyk, the protagonist's twin sister in my novel WIP.
Like her brother Arden's entries (pt.I and pt.II), this would have been written around the middle of the novelâs first act.
Thereâs something wrong with Arden. He hasnât been himself since we left Talon Harbor. Iâm worried, but honestly, I'm mostly frustrated.
I told him it was a bad idea for him to join the troop for the princeâs birthday expedition. Of all times he chooses to finally make something of himself, he thinks now is the time? He's already made a fool of himself several times. My brother has a hard time killing common deer for food, what in Valnâs name made him think heâd be suited for dragonslaying? Even as a tracker!
He said the most ridiculous thing to me today. He thinks Ta favors me. Out of all his most recent delusions, this one astounds me the most. Ta knows Iâm a talented hunter, but he wasnât considering me for this expedition any more than he was considering you, Arden. I am, and always have been, a daughter before anything else. Never mind my aim that his best archers have praised since I was a girl. As far as Ta is concerned, Maksim is his firstborn, and we, his twins--his actual children--will never measure up to that level of excellence.Â
But if Zarya Antova can make a name for herself as the only woman in the troop that's not a healer, then so can I. Iâm a Crestyk, after all. Ma has always said I take after Ta. I believe that works in my favor.
Imagine it: my first dragon slain and Prince Ivan is here to bear witness. Do you think his wife back on Isle Norr wears the scales of her trophies? Iâd wager sheâs never touched a bow and arrow in her life. A kitchen knife is the closest she will likely ever come to being a warrior.
Alright, Iâm getting ahead of myself. But a girl can dream, can she not?