surreptitious

01.07. cant sleep. i need warmth. i need to hug and listen to someone's heartbeat to fall asleep. i feel so helpless. i've never felt so lost.

- i didnt have the courage to say so

20.59. saying goodbye sure is easy. especially when you dont have to face them upfront. sorry but i had to run away from my problems.

16.32. what am i holding on to?

00.02. still unable to sleep.

14.05. my stomach churns and the rapidity of my heartbeat is unusual. what is this ill feeling.

19.00. whenever im in a tight spot i'll unconsciously hold my breath. i almost died today.

23.32. still cant sleep and im gonna end up waking up late again tomorrow. restless.

-said the girl who'd die from loneliness.

23.00, cant sleep. today is still the same as the other day. i wish i can do better tomorrow.