Today, Indonesia has been independent country for #71years! But I feel I'm not independent yet, not until I graduate ๐ oh maybe its enough just to finish my minithesis. Sometime I feel envy to the others who doesn't need over thinking bout how they pay all last student requirements, like biaya sidang, and another tuitions in my department. It needs much fund and I don't have, yet. And it's unable for me to rely to my parents. I actually can get that by join in writing/blogging contest then I win, like I often do. But it's like different in my circumstances rightnow. I'm confused and I'm sad ๐ I exactly need to get closer to God, that Most Wealthy and Merciful. I feel far, and wanna get closer to Him :( May I?