interests: horror, film, writing, 90s/00s pop culture and aesthetics, music, fashion, comics, clowns
quick facts:
i joined tumblr in 2020.
i have way too many f/os, so i've only listed the most prominent below the cut. do not be surprised if i talk about characters not listed there.
my type, when it comes to fictional characters, is usually some combination or flavor of evil/mean/violent, funny, older guy.
i do my best to tag things, but keep in mind that as my sense of humor tends to be raunchy and that the medias i enjoy usually depict violence, gore, drug use, and sexual themes, viewer discretion is advised. i'd say this blog is at best 16+.
my pronouns tend to change every month or so, so i please ask that you check this post on occasion to make sure you're up to date on what i'm using. i find my gender is largely influenced by the season, my interests, and what's going on in my life at any given time.
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notable tags:
circus honks | talking tag
circus jangling | rambling/incoherent/not-so-positive thoughts (not necessarily a vent tag)
clown mush | gush tag
circus scripts | my writing
my art | what it says on the tin
circus tv | videos i associate with my f/os (source clips, tiktoks, edits, etc)
circus tunes 🎶 | music i associate with my ships and f/os
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other blogs i run:
@offbeat-the-clownlord | main/reblog dump blog, interacts from here
@phone-in-the-attic | horror blog
@the-jokers-husband | batman blog
@wits-and-blades | bg3 blog (kind of dead but it exists)
@wheretheresaway-theresawilliam | fnaf blog (also kind of dead)
@silly-detector | gimmick blog
@cinephile-inc | film blog, occasionally posts reviews/rambles about movies i've recently watched, mostly just reblogged gif sets though
ask for 18+ blog only if you're an adult
i block indiscriminately. know that i'm vehemently against pedophilia, all kinds of bigotry, etc etc so on and so forth.
i enjoy dark subject matter and like to dip into exploring them through my writings and self ships as a way to deal with things i've personally gone through. if this makes you uncomfortable, this probably isn't the blog for you.
main/important f/os below the cut
The Joker [DC Comics] | Forever Husband [Married: 12•04•21] | Non-sharing | Tag: 🃏A Joker and His Ace🃏 | Other: I also ship with the versions from The Dark Knight, Batman (1989), and Joker (2019).
The Sawyer Family [The Texas Chainsaw Massacre Pt 1 & 2] | Sharing | Cousins | Tag: 🍖Sawyer Family Shenanigans🍖
Pamela & Jason Voorhees [Friday the 13th franchise] | Selective Sharing | Adoptive Family | Tags: 🧸Mama Voorhees🧸, 🧸Jason🧸
The Addams Family [The Addams Family & Addams Family Values/The Addams Family (1964)] | Sharing | Adoptive Family | Tags: 🥀Black Is Such a Happy Colour🥀 (Morticia), 🤺Either Way What Bliss🤺 (Gomez), ☠️Poison Sister☠️ (Wednesday), 🧨Explosive Brother🧨 (Pugsley), 💡Uncle Fester💡 (Uncle Fester), 🕷️*Snap Snap!*🕷️ (catch-all tag)
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*gripping the sink* I just woke up thinking about that pretentious nerd, I cannot be goaded into watching this show just because he did some fey charm bullshit to me while he was chattering in the background on the tv
NO!! STOP!! GO AWAY!!!! (started having "ironic" thoughts about a self insert and causing problems regarding the main friend group's dynamic because i am simply too much of a prettyboy for these idiot nerds)
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storyline where hannibal undermines carmine and accrues the roman empire for himself... hannibal bringing back the "prestige" of gotham's oldest class of criminal by involving joker in his business practices, and all of the personalities the clown prince of crime tends to attract... hannibal inadvertently destroying the mob from the inside out because carmine was, in some way, right about them not being suited for that world... thoughts.
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updates to my main The Shining self-insert/reaffirming their lore since it's been awhile
corey belle watson; great-great-great (etc etc, however many greats makes sense) grandchild of robert townley watson, the original founder of the overlook hotel
grew up largely detached from the family "legacy," and there wasn't exactly a fortune to be passed down by the time corey came around... not even a chance to inherit the hotel, considering how many hands it had passed through since watson's death
corey grew up as an "odd" kid, living in their own world and not making many connections with their peers. they were raised by their grandparents, which influenced them to have an easier time speaking with adults rather than fellow children. aside from their naturally introverted nature, another cause for their absence of friends was their odd powers, including telepathy and telekinesis; the shine.
corey did very well at keeping their psychic abilities hidden from their grandparents, but not always so from outsiders
corey took more of an interest in the overlook and their family history when they got older, eventually seeking work there; they would be hired as general staff, picking up slack, usually housekeeping work or waiting tables
for most of their residence at the hotel, corey held a neutral to wary relationship with its supernatural energy... it never outright sought to harm them, but it was never quite pleasant, either
aside from their supernatural experiences, corey's focus is mainly dedicated to their creative work, usually writing and photography. they haven't published any of their written pieces, but they do freelance photography to keep the lights on during the overlook's off season
in corey's timeline, jack and wendy divorced a year prior to jack seeking the caretaking position at the hotel; not wanting jack to do the job alone for liability reasons, ullman asked corey to join him for the winter, with the promise of a pay bonus for their trouble
the two started as complete strangers, but slowly grew fond of each other over the months... and if it weren't for corey, the hotel would've taken jack's soul for itself
if i really locked in about it, i wonder if there is a way i could make an mcu self-insert who's relationships and timelines all make sense...
for one, i know they'd probably need to be with the characters separately and unfortunately probably not as a poly relationship, though maybe the tony/oc/thor relationship could work out via avengers, but the tony/oc/thor/quill polycule doesn't really line up very well with canon events. the relationship progression would probably look something like: oc/tony -> tony/oc/thor -> oc/thor -> oc/quill -> quill/oc/thor(?). maybe.
for two, i'm not very good at age math, so how that would affect their character over the timeline would be a bit tricky/confusing for me. i'm so used to writing my s/is as 20-30 somethings in relationships with people anywhere 3 to 10+ years older than them lmao.
deadpool self-insert lore update/solidification... i've had five hundred million variations on self-inserts for wade But i think this is the most distinct it's gotten in awhile
dividers: (x), (x), (x), (x)
cws: themes of child abuse, unethical experimentation, themes of mental illness (including anxiety and depression)
Name: Caius Heavenly Wilson
Aliases:
Caius Heavenly Moreau (formerly)
Corey Wilson
The Raven
Plague (certain timelines)
Identity: AFAB. Genderfluid Transsexual. They/It/He (predominantly). Predominantly but not strictly attracted to men and masculine individuals.
Birthday: December 24th
Age: Mid 20s
Occupation: Anti-hero Vigilante, Freelance Mural Artist
Associations:
X-Men (formerly)
Deadpool
X-Force (occasionally)
Relationships:
Wade Wilson/Deadpool - Husband, best friend
Logan Howlett/Wolverine - Off-and-on ally, casual sexual relationship
Charles Xavier/Professor X - Ex-mentor, strained relationship
Other Marvel Heroes - Vague acquaintances
Dr. H. Moreau - Adoptive father, deceased, abusive relationship
Seth Flagg - Adoptive brother, off-and-on ally
Personality:
Deeply insecure and deflects by typically keeping to themself
Usually bottles up their emotions because they heavily affect their powers, often leading to extreme outbursts when the pressure becomes too much
Tends to be exhausted due to the unhealthy ways they cope with their problems; Very obviously traumatised and not going to a therapist about it
Cares about others more than themself, though this is not always obvious with how aloof they can act
Yearns for a simple life but feels obligated to use their powers to help those that can’t help themselves
Creative/artistic, their mural painting job is one of the only things that helps them drift away from their mental anguish
Powers:
Shapeshifting; strictly animal shapes (real and mythological) or unstable, amorphous blobs, always distinctly recognisable by being all black with white eyes (similar to how DC’s Beast Boy’s shapes are always green)
Speech duplication; can mimic any human/humanoid voice once heard - they are so good at this that they can convincingly conjure a conversation between multiple people with their voice alone
Minor clairvoyance; they will have flashes of the future, but they are often too detached to make sense of in the moment
Mutant sturdiness; takes more than a few punches, slices, or bullets to put them down
Background
Birth: December 24th, 19XX - An unnamed child is born to a poor couple in a small Midwestern town. Unable to care for them themselves, the child is given up for adoption. The child is nicknamed “Dove” and spends a few years in the foster care system before finally being adopted at the age of four by a scientist named Dr. H. Moreau. Moreau renames the child to Caius Heavenly and relocates them to the remote woodlands of New England.
Childhood: Caius grew up enduring constant supervision and experimentation within Moreau’s compound, alongside a plethora of other children and subjects. Moreau’s goals were to “improve” the human race, combining human DNA with that of animals and putting his subjects’ bodies through intense physical tests in an effort to force start any latent mutant genes they may have.
Caius was chosen as they had been born in a town plagued by radiation problems; as such, Moreau felt they had strong potential to develop superpowers. The experimentation on Caius as a child was rather mundane, but as they would grow up, the violence and invasiveness towards them would increase drastically.
Teenhood: Caius was around fourteen when Moreau decided they were showing the most promise among his “children,” leading to an unwavering focus on them. Caius was the only subject in Moreau’s compound that was treated with some semblance of normalcy between rigorous experimentation sessions. Caius was afforded their own room in Moreau’s mansion, was dressed in nice clothes, ate (mostly) well, and was given a lot more freedom compared to their “siblings.”
This was when Caius’ powers started to develop more outwardly, starting with his speech duplication and clairvoyant abilities. Moreau took particular interest in their clairvoyance and tried to force it to be stronger, but his methods may have actually caused its weakening. Caius’ shapeshifting abilities began to develop a year later.
It took a considerable amount of time for Caius to consider that a world existed beyond Moreau and the compound. One of his siblings, Seth, managed to momentarily escape, but was ultimately captured and returned by Moreau’s employees. He went on to tell the other subjects about his brief taste of the outside world and inadvertently helped Caius realise that they no longer wished to remain in the compound.
Escape: Shortly into Caius’ seventeenth year, authorities raided Moreau’s compound. Unwilling to let his work be “misconstrued,” the scientist initiated his emergency protocol and attempted to blow up the compound, along with all of his notes, employees, and victims inside. The event killed a majority of those on the premises, but among the small number of survivors was Caius, who ran off to try and figure out how to live life.
Caius learned about Xavier’s School for Gifted Youngsters and fled to the X-Mansion, seeking refuge. There, Caius was taken under the wing of Professor X himself as they acclimated to a life outside of the compound.
X-Men Training and Ejection/Resignation: Caius trained as an X-Man for three years, taking on the alias of The Raven for their inclination towards the bird as their favourite animal form. When expected to actually perform in a heroic scenario, however… Caius had a severe panic attack that nearly cost the lives of both one of their team members and a civilian. Due to this, Caius never actually became an official X-Man. As Cyclops was leading their first mission, he was the one to give the order that Caius was not ready to be a superhero. They doubled down on that by resigning from the X-Men program altogether, despite others’ opinions on the matter, choosing to instead pursue the life of your average day-to-day New Yorker.
Meeting Deadpool: Though Caius’ first encounter with the infamous Merc with A Mouth may’ve been a complete coincidence, Wade was, somehow, astutely aware of who they were— in regard to their brief history with the X-Men, at least. Beguiled by their “anxiety-ridden charm,” Wade began making any excuse to pop up in Caius’ life, and even convinced them to give anti-heroing a try; they didn’t need to live dully just because they couldn’t live up to the standards of the “greater” heroes.
Wade was Caius’ first true friend in a post-Moreau world, and eventually, his first lover as well. Despite the many issues between them, it is decidedly better for them to have each other than to not, and they even ended up married. The Raven can now often be seen joining Deadpool on contracts/adventures, even if they may not participate in as much of the action as their companion.
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Please put on your N95s. The same ones used for covid will filter particulate pollution. I lived in a city with yearly winter pollution levels like this. If you can pay for it, you might as well get an indoor air filter to sleep in.