#𝐋𝐘𝐒𝐒

I've been in a really bad place mentally these weeks. Some of you might've seen my post where I talked about being kicked out for being trans. I've been able to move in with a friend and their family and have been taken care of by them, so I almost feel ungrateful for not being able to mentally recover faster. I've been struggling with feelings of guilt and shame for being trans, like I'm unlovable or like others will cast me away too. Dysphoria's been worse than ever, I can't even look myself in the mirror and whatever reflection of myself I catch on the furniture or my phone or whatever else, reminds me of my body and makes me physically sick. I'm constantly crying and I can't sleep. I hate to seem ungrateful or like I'm asking for more than I need, but I've opened another goal on kofi for transitioning, which I'd like to start as soon as possible. I've been looking for a job and applying to different places but I haven't heard from anyone. I feel like the only thing that would help me escape depression (for which I take meds) and this mental anguish from dysphoria would be to finally start moving somewhere with transitioning. Even "just" starting hormones. I'm from Eastern Europe so transitioning is thankfully cheaper here than in the west, but still very much expensive for our standard. If you'd like to help a trans person battle dysphoria and depression, please consider donating❤️ But don't feel like you have to. And thank you all. So much.

I've been in a really bad place mentally these weeks. Some of you might've seen my post where I talked about being kicked out for being trans. I've been able to move in with a friend and their family and have been taken care of by them, so I almost feel ungrateful for not being able to mentally recover faster. I've been struggling with feelings of guilt and shame for being trans, like I'm unlovable or like others will cast me away too. Dysphoria's been worse than ever, I can't even look myself in the mirror and whatever reflection of myself I catch on the furniture or my phone or whatever else, reminds me of my body and makes me physically sick. I'm constantly crying and I can't sleep. I hate to seem ungrateful or like I'm asking for more than I need, but I've opened another goal on kofi for transitioning, which I'd like to start as soon as possible. I've been looking for a job and applying to different places but I haven't heard from anyone. I feel like the only thing that would help me escape depression (for which I take meds) and this mental anguish from dysphoria would be to finally start moving somewhere with transitioning. Even "just" starting hormones. I'm from Eastern Europe so transitioning is thankfully cheaper here than in the west, but still very much expensive for our standard. If you'd like to help a trans person battle dysphoria and depression, please consider donating❤️ But don't feel like you have to. And thank you all. So much.