ciel

today i offered nothing. good night everyone!!!

just went outside and played all day mind u i have stuff to do

my personal social media’s are an attempt to confuse the audience that perceives me enough that they can barely perceive much at all— allowing me to break free of the concept of identity in some way

oh hello you seem pretty sad for a girl so in love earbuds

mondays have you thinking shit like I wish I could undo all my mistakes

a gap year will do this too

a lot of your suffering comes from treating your nature like a problem to manage instead of a design to understand

UNPOPULAR OPINION: A lot of "mental health issues" disappear when bills are paid, rent is secure, and the fridge is full. Peace is expensive. And pretending money doesn't affect mental health is privilege.

The OBSESSION with identity is so crazy like the view that when you do something it immediately becomes part of your identity and all the parts of you have to click together to become “person who wakes up early” or “person who reads” no you can literally just do something without restructuring your whole performance of personhood around it. I don’t know what to tell you except that you will never be able to have an entirely unfractured view of yourself or that you will be able to rationalize all the complex parts of yourself into the phrase “person who x” like you should just be doing things without performing them. Or aestheticizing them. Just try different things on and keep what works for you. Otherwise you will never learn and grow!

when fiona apple asked “how can i ask anyone to love me when all i do is beg to be left alone”. well i have not found an answer but if anyone else has lmk