I Want You by mitski is acctually so incredibly andreil coded.
"You're coming back and its the end of the world we're starting over and i love you darling and I am done here"
Is Neil Abram Josten waiting for Andrew to come back from rehab knowing Andrew will be different now that hes sober, knowing he broke his promise to Andrew to look over Kevin by going to Evermore for Andrew. Knowing that Riko complicates his chances of survival that much more. Neil not being sure if Andrew will accept him back, not being sure if his going to evermore even paid off, not being sure how much longer he can stick around and how much longer Andrew will allow him to stick around. All of that while fighting with the fact that he wants Andrew and that he has to leave him, that gettting closer will only make the fact that Neil lied about his dad be that much more of a betrayal. If he convinces himself Andrew doesnt acctually want him back the same way then the imposibility of their deal and Neils inevitable death wont hurt as much. Neil found him, he found his protector and he knows he has to leave him, he prioritised Andrews safety over his own. Neil understands going to Evermore defied everything he was ever taught about survival but he did it anyways. And its him continously avoiding the countdown on his phone for more time with Andrew (and the foxes) bc he has always had a countdown. First he would be with the foxes until August then until the first ravens game then hed diasapear at winter break and every time andrew and the foxes convinced him to stay a little longer and everytime it brought him a little closer to death. Its him knowing hes done for but choosing still to be here.
