Elise 크로스만 ||Alver's Little Bitch||

I don't know why but I am angry again.

Maybe because I don't know where all this rage is coming from and where its headed. Maybe its in a bottle trying to explode in the worst way possible or maybe its desperately trying to find a way out

Or maybe i am just angry for not knowing why i am angry

How can you say "I'm glad my first and last time eating meat was you" and mean it literally and then proceed to not MAKE OUT???

Suic*dal

Not sad but not happy either

Just there existing

Hating myself just as much as i loge myself

Stuck in this abyss of loneliness even though i have people around me who i know love me yet i can never truly believe that anyone could ever love someone like me

Emptiness inside me feels like home

Personality depending on people i am interacting with at the moment because i don't truly have one of my own

I think i deserve all the world's misery

Running away at the mere site of affection others might show towards me

Hate humanity in general

Cale: lemme guess. When i fell from heaven?

Alver: when you broke through the earth's crust ascending from hell.

Cale: ...

kdj: no need no need! thats because i have no regard whatsoever for my personal safety

Zed: Alver just sent me a "get better" card

Tasha: awh thats .. sweet?

Zed: i wasn't sick. He just thought i could do better