Chloala-Bear (also known as Crowbear)

So I had another crash but am feeling like I'm managing things better. It's been about 3wks now since they upped my meds and put me on Melatonin to help me sleep. Huge difference. I don't know if it's the melatonin or meds but I'm getting at least 3 good nights sleep a week and it's made a massive difference. I can only describe not sleeping for months on end as torture. I'm sure anyone who suffers from insomnia will understand. Getting up in the morning after just laying awake all night and being a zombie day in day out because you've lost so many cognitive skills from your brain not being able to repair itself through rest.. It's torture. Yeah this on top of CFS has not been the funnest experience. And it's a double whammy because when you're that tired you don't have the strength to keep yourself mentally healthy and it all just washes over you until you're a sad zombie crying in a corner just waiting for the earth to open up and swallow you whole. So I am very very grateful for the sleep. Even if it's only a little it is so so much better than nothing. I feel human again. One day at a time hey? Keep on keepin on

Saw the GP today, changing meds and referred to psychiatrist which is nearby so that’s good. Got up got dressed, went out in public, went to a coffee shop, walked in stead of driving. Patting myself on the back and having a rest before I attempt my uni work.