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đ - Armando Gonzalez x fem reader!
Warnings - angst, hurt/comfort, mentions of alcohol and drinking. ïżŒ
Summary - Months after their breakup an unexpectedly reunite and slowly find their way back to each other.
Notes - my bad guys this is really long, also I didnât really get time to reread it so there might be a little grammar mistakes.ïżŒI wanted it to not feel rushed and feel kind of natural so thatâs why I wrote sm! this was a good write for me because not to get all zappy but I added conversations that I wish I had to someone. ANYWAYSS no sad!! hope you guys enjoy! I made Armando a little desperate so yeahhh!!ïżŒïżŒ
Everything was perfect, The relationship was perfect. So when it came crashing down, it felt like the world is ending for you. You and Armando were perfect. He was perfect.
Until one day, he called you up to his hotel where he was staying at. You came straight away nothing seemed out of the ordinary. You knocked . He peaked out of the door and motion for you to get in. You came in happily. He close the door behind him. As he turned back to look at him, you could see his expression. His gentle eyes daring everywhere, but looking at you. âare you okay Armando?â he didnât even look at you. He only stared at the floor. â can we talk?â His voice came out softer than expected. Those three words made your heart sink. Armando was still wearing his kit, training gear all over the floor. you Quietly took a seat on the edge of the bed.
â I donât think I can do this anymore.â He rubbed both hands over his face, exhausted. âThe travel, training⊠everything. I donât have enough left to give you.â You laughed softly, expecting him to smile and admit it was a terrible joke. He didnât. âSoâŠâ your voice cracked. âYouâre breaking up with me because youâre busy?â âItâs more than that.â âThen explain it.â You murmured. âI canât.â his voice coming out soft as ever. You stared at the man youâve spent loving.
The same man who had promised youâve be in the stands every game. The same man who had kissed your forehead after every game, win or lose. The same man who suddenly looked like a stranger. You swallowed the lump in your throat. âokayâ you said holding back. âOkay?â he leaned forward at your unexpected response. âIâm not going to beg you to love meâŠI hope you get everything you deserve.â no fighting. No screaming. no nothing. You leave the hotel room wishing he would come stop you but he didnât. He let you walk out and that hurt the most. Finally your tears roll down.
The first few months were unbearable. Everything reminded you of him. Soccer games. His jersey hanging in your closet. The number fourteen. It didnât help that he was plastered on many advertisements. At one point, you even avoided walking down the street. reaching for your phone to text him after work before remembering you couldnât. instinctively buying his favorite chips at the grocery store. Blocked his interviews whenever they appeared online. It was hearing strangers cheer at a soccer game on television and instinctively smiling before realizing youâd no longer knew whether heâd won. And the nights were colder. Crying until you physically couldnât. Him haunting you in your dreams. But then you stopped .
You started saying yes, to girl nights. you changed your hairstyle. Hid many photos you never thought you would get rid of. You started laughing. going out. Being yourself again. Not because he healed from him. Because the world kept moving. Because you were tired of someone deciding where you couldnât and could go.
Music pounded through the crowded bar. The place buzzed with laughter, clinking glasses, and people shouting over one another. The lights, casting blue and pink shadows against the walls.
You were sitting with your friends, cheeks warm from two margaritas and a tequila shot you definitely didnât need. âYou should go talk to him,â one of your friends teased, pointing toward a guy across the room. âThatâs the worst idea ever!â you laughed. Your cheeks were sore from the dumb smile you had, I guess thatâs the price to pay for all the drinks youâve had. âYou look happier,â your friend observed, nudging your shoulder. You smiled into your glass. âI think Iâm finally becoming myself again.â âYou deserve that.â You nodded softly.
Across the room⊠The front door swung open. Armando barely noticed where he was being led. His teammates had insisted on celebrating a win. He hadnât wanted to come. But refusing meant more questions. So heâd let them drag him inside. Beer had turned into tequila. Tequila had turned into whiskey. His shirt was wrinkled, sleeves rolled unevenly to his elbows. The top two buttons had come undone hours ago. His cheeks were flushed from alcohol. His movements just slightly slower than normal. He looked exhausted beneath the intoxication. Now everything around him blurred together. Voices. Lights. Music. His smile was forced. Every laugh sounded distant.
until he saw you. Sitting at the bar. Laughing. Looking effortlessly beautiful. he shook his head and looked again. He honestly thought you were a hallucination at first, but no there you were. His entire expression changed. Like the alcohol suddenly wasnât enough to numb whatever heâd been carrying. He stood so quickly his chair scraped loudly across the floor. Mateo grabbed his arm. âDude.â
âIâm fine.â Armando shot back. âYou are absolutely not fine.â said Mateo while pulling him down to his seat.
Mateo didnât loosen his grip. âDude.âArmando yanked his arm back a little harder this time, jaw tightening. âI said Iâm fine.â Mateo stared at him for a second before following his line of sight. His expression immediately softened. ââŠOh.â
Across the room, you threw your head back laughing at something your friend had whispered. The sound never reached Armando over the music, but he didnât need to hear it. He remembered it perfectly. That laugh used to be reserved for him. Now someone else had earned it. The realization hit harder than every shot heâd taken that night. His fingers curled around the edge of the table until his knuckles whitened. âYou didnât tell us thatâs her,â Mateo muttered. âI didnât know sheâd be here.â âYou should stay here.â
Armando laughed bitterly, shaking his head. âIâve spent months staying away.âHe stood again. This time Mateo hesitated holding him back.
You felt it before you saw him. That strange feeling of someone watching you. Your smile slowly faded as your eyes wandered across the crowded room. Your stomach dropped. Armando. Standing only twenty feet away.
His white button-up was wrinkled beyond saving, sleeves unevenly rolled to his forearms. His usually neat hair had fallen over his forehead, messy from running frustrated hands through it all night. The flush on his cheeks and the unfocused look in his eyes told you exactly how much heâd had to drink. But somehowâŠThose familiar hazel eyes found yours as if every person in the room had disappeared.
Everything around you slowed. The music became muffled. The flashing lights blurred. Your friendâs voice faded into nothing. months. months of wondering if youâd ever see him again.
Your friend noticed your expression first. ââŠYou okay?â You swallowed. âIâŠâ Your voice caught. âI need a second.â Without waiting for another question, you slid off your barstool. Not toward him. JustâŠaway. You needed air. Needed a bathroom. Needed somewhere that wasnât directly under his gaze. Anything.
You turned. But before you could take two stepsâ ây\nâŠ.â His voice. Hoarse.
Unsteady. Barely loud enough to be heard over the music. Yet somehow louder than everything else. You froze. No one had said your name like that in months. Like it hurt. Slowly, you looked back.
Armando was making his way through the crowd, bumping shoulders with strangers without even noticing. Someone apologized after colliding with him. He didnât hear them. His entire world had narrowed to you. Mateo followed a few steps behind, clearly debating whether he should intervene.
When Armando finally stopped in front of you, neither of you spoke. You hadnât realized how much heâd changed. There were darker circles beneath his eyes. His face looked leaner. His shoulders, somehow, carried more weight than before. He looked tired. Not the kind of tired sleep could fix. The kind someone carried inside them. His eyes searched your face desperately. âYouâŠâ He let out a shaky breath. âYou cut your hair.â Your hand instinctively brushed the ends of it. ââŠYeah.â âIt looksâŠâ His lips twitched into the smallest smile. ââŠbeautiful.â
Your chest tightened painfully. months, And the first thing he noticedâŠwas your hair.
Silence settled between you again. Neither of you knew what to say. Because how do you greet someone who used to know every version of you? How do you say hello to someone who broke your heart? Armando rubbed a hand over his face. âI wasnât expectingâŠâ His words slurred together slightly. âI thought⊠I thought if I ever saw you againâŠâ He laughed once. A hollow sound. ââŠIâd have time to prepare.â
You looked away. âYouâve had six months.â âI know.â His answer came immediately. âI wasted every single one.â The words knocked the breath from your lungs. Behind him, Mateo quietly stepped back, giving the two of you space. Your friends exchanged uncertain glances from the bar but wisely stayed seated. No one wanted to interrupt whatever this was.
You crossed your armsânot because you were angry, but because it felt like the only thing holding you together. âYou shouldnât be talking to me like this⊠youâre drunk.â your voice trembled slightly. âI knowâ
You donât mean half of what youâre saying.â That finally made him look up. His expression crumpled. âNoâŠâ His voice cracked. âThe alcoholâs the only reason I can actually say it.â His eyes shimmered under the neon lights. âIâve wanted to talk to you every day.â He took one hesitant step closer. âI just didnât think I deserved to.â The music continued to pulse around you. People laughed. Glasses clinked. Someone shouted over a game playing on the televisions. Yet somehow, the tiny space between the two of you felt impossibly still. Like the rest of the bar had disappeared. Like six months had collapsed into a single, fragile moment neither of you knew how to survive.
Armandoâs gaze never left yours. There was something almost unbearable about the way he looked at you now. Not with hope. Not with expectation. With regret. The kind that settled into someoneâs bones. He let out a shaky breath, rubbing a trembling hand over the back of his neck. âIâve replayed that dayâŠâ he admitted quietly. âThe hotel.â Your heartbeat stuttered. âI remember every second.â You didnât answer. You couldnât.
âI remember you knocking.â His voice cracked into a humorless laugh. âYou smiled when I opened the door.â His eyes drifted to the floor. ââŠYou had brought me coffee.â You hadnât even remembered that. Until now. The memory hit you like a wave. The paper cup growing cold in your hands while he told you he couldnât do this anymore. The way youâd thrown it away before leaving because somehow carrying it home had hurt more. âYou were excited to see me.â His jaw clenched. âAnd IâŠâ He swallowed hard. âI ruined your life in less than ten minutes.â You looked away before he could see your eyes watering.
âNo,â you said quietly. âYou donât get to decide that.â He frowned. âYou donât get to rewrite what happened because you feel guilty now.â His shoulders sank. âI know.â âNoâŠâ you continued, forcing yourself to meet his eyes. âYou made a choice.â Every word felt like dragging broken glass from your chest. âYou looked me in the eyeâŠ.You told me you couldnât love me anymore.â His expression twisted immediately. âI neverââ âYou did.â Your voice wasnât loud. It didnât need to be. âYou may not have used those exact wordsâŠâ A tear threatened to fall, but you blinked it away before it could. ââŠBut thatâs what I heard.â Silence. Armandoâs breathing became uneven. He opened his mouth. Closed it again. Because for the first time⊠He realized there wasnât a defense.
There wasnât an explanation that erased six months. âI thoughtâŠâ he whispered. âI thought letting you go was the right thing.â You laughed softly.It wasnât a happy sound. âCongratulations.â Your lips trembled into a smile that hurt more than crying. âIt worked.â He stared at you. âYou let me go.â Those four words broke something inside him. âNo.â He stepped forward before stopping himself, catching his balance as the alcohol threatened to betray him.
His face crumpled. The guilt was written all over him. Not the guilt of someone caught. The guilt of someone who had been punishing himself every day since. âI wanted to call you.â He laughed bitterly. âGodâŠI had your number pulled up so many nights.â His eyes glazed over. âIâd type everything out.â His thumb mimicked scrolling across an invisible phone. ââIâm sorry.ââ ââI made a mistake.ââ ââCan we talk?ââ He shook his head. âAnd every timeâŠâ âI deleted itâŠ.Because I kept thinkingâŠâ His voice became barely audible. âYou deserved someone who didnât leave.â
Your chest tightened so painfully it almost stole your breath. That was all youâd wanted. An apology. Some explanation. Some sign that losing you had hurt him too. And now he was giving you everything you had begged the universe to hear. Six months too late. Your heart ached at every word. It wanted to believe him. It wanted to run into his arms and pretend none of it had happened. It remembered every forehead kiss. Every sleepy âdrive safe.â Every post-game hug where heâd search the crowd until he found you. It remembered the version of him that had loved you so gently.
But your mind⊠Your mind remembered the hotel room. The way he couldnât look at you. The silence after you said âokay.â The sound of the door clicking shut behind you. The fact that he hadnât stopped you. You wrapped your arms around yourself, almost instinctively. Not because you were cold. Because it felt like you were holding your own heart together.
âYouâve been drinking⊠You wouldnât be saying any of this if you were sober.â âI would.â His answer came so quickly it startled even him. âI justâŠâ He exhaled shakily. âI wouldâve been too much of a coward.â Your eyes searched his face. The sincerity was there. The guilt was there. The longingâŠThat was there too. But so was the alcohol. And that terrified you. Because tomorrow morning he could wake up, remember none of this clearly, and convince himself it had all been a mistake. You couldnât survive being abandoned by him twice. You shook your head slowly. âI donât know if these are your wordsâŠâ Your voice was barely above a whisper. ââŠor the whiskeyâs.â His expression fell as if youâd physically struck him.âTheyâre mine.â âI donât know that.â
The words hung between you. For the first time all night, Armando had no response. Because you were right. He had chosen the worst possible moment to tell you the truth. And the tragedy was that every word he had spoken was real. Yet standing there with flushed cheeks, unfocused eyes, and whiskey on his breath⊠He had no way to make you believe him.
your breathing became uneven. To uneven. you brushed it off to be the alcohol, but that wasnât the case. it was you fighting your emotions. Fight for your happiness. your head felt light. your eyes trembled looking at him, your mind raced for a comeback. For you to walk away. For you to react. But you couldnât you froze. Even in his drunken state Armando had realized. It was the same look you had when you would study at his apartment. When you would be tired and overwhelmed from classes. he would always know how to make you feel better. he would wrap you around his big arms, gently holding you. Stroking the back of your hair.
The alcohol betraying Armando. He grabbed your arm. not tight. Just gently, letting you slip away any moment. your eyes widen. But you didnât go. Your eyes both met for a second. Just a second. His warm, gentle eyes speaking for him. He gently pushed you into his shirt. he wrapped his arms around you carefully. The familiar scent of jasmine and vanilla flooding your nose. Your fingers tugging on the white fabric. you wanted to pull away, but you couldnât. Your body wouldnât let you. You unintentionally melted into him. Tears quickly sinking into the his crumpled white shirt. Your emotions have betrayed you. Why were you crying? You were strong. So why?
His arms never tightened. He held you as if he were afraid that even the slightest pressure would make you disappear again. The bar faded into nothing. The music was still loud, people were still laughing somewhere behind you, glasses still clinked against wooden tablesâbut it all sounded impossibly distant. Muffled beneath the frantic beating of your heart. Your cheek rested against the familiar fabric of his shirt. Wrinkled. Still warm from his body. You could feel the uneven rhythm of his breathing against your forehead. Fast. Shaky. Like every breath was something he had to remember to take.
Then⊠You felt it. His hands were trembling. Not from the alcohol.
From you. From finally having you in his arms again. His chin rested lightly against the top of your head as he shut his eyes. âIâve missed youâŠâ The confession came out as nothing more than a broken whisper. âSo⊠so much.â His voice cracked on the last word.
You squeezed your eyes shut. Donât believe him. Please donât believe him. Heâs drunk. Heâs emotional. Tomorrow heâll wake up embarrassed. Tomorrow heâll tell himself he didnât mean any of it. Tomorrow youâll have to survive losing him all over again. But your heart⊠Your heart had spent months starving for exactly these words. You hated yourself for how quickly it softened. Your fingers unconsciously tightened around the fabric of his shirt. Armando felt it immediately. He let out the smallest, shakiest breath.
Mateo watched the two of you from across the room, his concern growing with every passing second. Armando wasnât yelling. He wasnât angry. Somehow⊠That worried Mateo more. He had never seen his friend look so completely undone. âArmando.â His voice came from behind him. A hand settled firmly on his shoulder. âI think thatâs enough.â Armando didnât even turn around. âIâm talking to her.â âI know.â Mateo glanced toward you, offering an apologetic smile before lowering his voice. âYouâre drunk.â Armando let out an irritated breath.âMateo.â âIâm trying to help you.â Mateo sighed, running a hand through his hair. âYouâve been carrying this around for months. The last thing you need is to say something youâll regret tomorrow.â
Armando finally looked at him.
There wasnât anger in his expression.
Only certainty. âIâll regret walking away.â His voice was quiet. âI wonât regret talking to her.â Mateo hesitated. His eyes shifted toward you. You gave him the smallest nod. Not because everything was okay. But because this conversation wasnât finished. Mateo noticed. His shoulders relaxed just slightly. ââŠFive minutes.â Armando frowned. âWhat?â âIâm giving you five minutes.â âMateoââ âAnd somewhere quieter.â He looked around the crowded bar. People brushed past every few seconds, music rattled the glasses on nearby tables, strangers glanced over with curious expressions. âThis isnât the place.â
The cool night air hit your skin the moment the heavy bar door closed behind you. The noise instantly dulled into a distant thump behind the brick walls. String lights stretched between neighboring buildings, casting a soft golden glow over the damp pavement. Somewhere farther down the street, a car rolled past, tires humming against the asphalt. Neither of you spoke immediately. The silence wasnât awkward.
The conversation had gone quiet. Not because there was nothing left to say. Because both of you had finally run out of things to hide behind. The anger had burned itself out. The tears had slowed. Now all that remained was the truth.
Armando sat beside you on the empty bench outside the bar, elbows resting on his knees. The summer air was cool against flushed cheeks, the distant hum of traffic replacing the pounding music inside. Neither of you looked at each other. You both watched the street instead. His fingers absentmindedly rolled the cap of a water bottle Mateo had forced into his hands.
âIâd park across the street after training.â You looked at him.âI knew you liked that coffee shop.â His voice was almost embarrassed. âI never came inside.â ââŠWhy?â He gave a sad smile. âIâd thinkâŠâ His eyes stayed fixed ahead. ââŠâMaybe sheâs here.ââ Your heart squeezed painfully. âAnd if you wereâŠâ He laughed quietly. ââŠIâd drive away.â You stared at him. âI couldnât stand the thought of seeing you happy without me.â His honesty caught you off guard. âSo Iâd leave before I had the chance.â
You let out a slow breath. âI cried for months.â His jaw tightened. You smiled faintly through tired eyes. âBut eventuallyâŠâ You looked up at the stars barely visible above the city lights. ââŠlife kept happening.â Armando nodded slowly. Silence settled again. It felt⊠gentler now. Not heavy. Just quiet.
After another minute, Armando spoke.
âIf I asked for another chanceâŠâ You immediately looked at him. ââŠIâd understand if the answer was no.â He wasnât pleading. He wasnât trying to convince you. He simply sounded⊠scared. âBut Iâd regret never asking.â You stared at him for a long time. Your heart wanted to answer immediately. Your mind refused. âYou hurt me.â His eyes filled with guilt. âI know.â You swallowed. âI donât think I could survive going through that twice.â The sentence nearly broke him.
He nodded before you had even finished speaking. âYou shouldnât have to.â You turned toward him fully. âI need you to really hear meâŠ.If I let you back into my lifeâŠâ Your voice trembled. ââŠand you leave againâŠâ You looked away. âI donât think thereâd be anything left of me to put back together.â Armando didnât answer immediately. InsteadâŠHe reached into his pocket. Your brows furrowed. He pulled out his phone. For a second you thought he was going to show you something.
Instead, he powered it off completely. The screen went black. Then he set it on the bench between you. âI spent six months choosing football over the conversation I shouldâve had.â His voice was steady. âIâm not asking you to trust me tonight.â He gently slid the phone toward you. âIâm asking you to hold me accountable.â You looked at the phone. Then back at him. âIf I disappear againâŠâ His eyes met yours. âIf I stop communicating.â âIf I start shutting you outâŠ.If I ever make you question whether youâre lovedâŠâ He pushed the phone a little closer. ââŠI want you to leave.â
Your breath caught. âWhat?â âThe first timeâŠâ His voice cracked. ââŠI made the decision for both of us.â A tear rolled down his cheek. âI will never do that again.â The sincerity in his voice made your chest ache. âYouâll always get a choice.â You stared at him. Every instinct told you to protect yourself. To walk away. To remember the hotel room. But another part of you⊠The part that had spent loving this man⊠Could see he wasnât asking for forgiveness. He was asking for the opportunity to earn it.
Very slowly⊠You reached over. Not for his phone. For his hand. Your fingers barely touched his. He looked down in surprise. âI canât promise everything goes back to how it was.â âI donât want it to.â His answer was immediate. âWhat we hadâŠâ He smiled sadly. ââŠwas beautifulâŠ.But weâre not those people anymore.â You nodded. âWeâd have to start overâŠ.As friends.â He nodded. âAs friends.â
âNo pretending nothing happened.â You searched his face, looking for even the slightest hesitation. You found none. Only quiet determination. You let out a slow breath. âIâm not saying yes to being your girlfriend.â âI know.â You squeezed his hand once before letting go. ââŠIâm willing to see if we can find our way back to each other.â Armando closed his eyes. A shaky laugh escaped him as he lowered his head. Not because he had won. Because he knew this wasnât a victory. It was a beginning.
A fragile one. Built not on grand declarations or drunken promisesâŠ
But on something far more difficult.
Patience. Honesty. And the understanding that love alone wasnât enough this time. Trust would have to be rebuilt. Armando turned to face you, his lips parted.