Juniper

So, I'm doing Inktober or Drawlloween! I'm using inks but I liked Mab's prompts better lol

Using this to try to stop overthinking when I draw and be more accepting of imperfection, as well as just. Have fun. Enjoy the process.

Gonna start sharing my sketchbook and being less formal here. I'm just a disabled queer drawing because that's part of how I LIVE!!!

I cannot and will not promise any kind of consistent posting but I decided it can't hurt to throw something I've finished up on Tumblr now and again.

Self portrait from back in Sept. I am trying to get into the practice of occasional self portrait. I have body dysmorphia, and DO NOT have a solid grasp of what I look like, at all. 

I also have terrible self esteem issues about myself and how others see me. From both abuse and just... EXISTING in our world as a fat, sick, not-cis person.

This is probably the most accurate self portrait I’ve ever done, on top of that I’m super happy with the color. Its a mix of colored pencil and watercolor, based on a photo. I didn’t like looking at myself that day, but I needed a photo to reference. I ended up not forcing myself to smile and just capturing my honest reaction to seeing myself in the moment.

Uploading this now reminds me of how powerful this was for me. I need to do more self portraiture. I felt like shit about myself before drawing this, and I drew this honestly! I drew evidence of blemishes and my picking problem (working on it but if you know you know how hard it is lol) I drew my facial hair, which wasn’t shaved at the time (and is very blonde lmao) I drew my double chin. And after I put myself through this artist observe and interpret lens, I felt so much more compassionate and kind toward myself.

Watercolor and white ink painting of my Lily, being her oddball self with a veil.

Available on Redbubble:

https://www.redbubble.com/shop/ap/60802258

And Inprnt:

I believe the original version of this piece was from 2013? Somewhere around there. I still had the original, and it had been linework and just some flat pale grey tones. I decided to use some watercolor and colored pencils and give it an update :3 I was very inspired by the leaves out the windows at the time.

Available on redbubble:

https://www.redbubble.com/shop/ap/62900844?asc=u

And Inprnt:

Just some queer devils having a frolic. 

The colored version is available on Redbubble: 

https://www.redbubble.com/shop/ap/62898326?asc=u

And Inprnt:

A gift for @lioness--hart I did recently. Trying to remember to upload my SFW stuff here <XD

For those of you who want to see the erotic work I’m doing now. :3 since I CAN post it there <3