love letters to myself

Strolling through a gallery, picturing that I’m worthy of

Someone to hold my hand like I’m another work of art 

But instead, I walk alone and every painting breaks my heart 

I never thought I’d try to kiss you until the night I found us there

Weaving through exhibits, laughing like the perfect pair 

Every darkened corner whispered that I should pull you in 

God, I never wanted you as much as I did then 

And I know that it’s all ruined now, each display and artifact

Every museum I step foot in will only take me back 

To wanting you so badly it almost drove me mad

To touch you I’d do unspeakable things

Just one kiss is all it would take

For my back to turn, my morals to break

A love like yours could bring me to violence

A piercing scream and haunting silence

To hold you I would even kill

Make a heartbeat stop, cause a breath to still

Would they let me off if I pled insanity?

A longing so deep that I lost my humanity

For you I’d commit even the worst of crimes

Let them lock me away for the rest of my life

They’d all call me crazy, but I’d know the truth

Waves crashing over my head

Truths I already know

(You love her, you’re leaving)

Push me under again and again

I can’t catch my breath

Let alone swim for shore

My lungs begin to fill

But there’s no release

You’ve been cryptic, keeping secrets, but you’ve finally given in

I listen as you tell me ‘bout your plans to move away

This place isn’t what you’d hoped for, there’s no reason you should stay

Although I saw it coming, it’s still difficult to hear

I’ve only just become your friend, and now you’re set to disappear

And sure, I’m happy for you, but what makes it hard to bear

Is knowing that you have someone who’s waiting for you there

You say her name like something sacred, something too good to believe

The tenderness, the reverence, it almost shatters me

You say that if she asked you to, you’d up and leave today

Abandon all your plans to go and work in some café

And with a sinking feeling, I realize the truth

You’re pretty and smart like I wish I could be

The worst parts of me you’ve already seen

I just can’t help but think about you all the fucking time

Can’t seem to keep my focus when I’m behind the wheel

I dream about you so much, I’ve forgotten what is real

I almost miss my exit cause I’m thinking ‘bout your lips

God how I would love if I could be your New Year's kiss

My eyes are on the road but my mind is stuck on you

I wish the thought of us together wasn’t too good to be true

There’s traffic up ahead and I almost forget to brake

I swear to god that I’m not usually this unsafe

Driving sixty-five, writing poems in my head

If I’m not more careful I know I’ll end up dead

They’ll say it was the wreck but oh if they only knew

All I see is black and red

I can’t move, my heart is pounding

Just one bite and I’ll be dead

Don’t know how you got this power

I’ve been trapped in here for hours

I guess I wouldn’t mind, though

If it’s me that you devoured

Like a spider and its prey

Never thought I’d see the day

That I let myself be captured

(it was nothing like we were)

When can I call you mine?

It’s been like, sixteen days now

And we still haven’t found the time

I know that life gets in the way

And I’ll (probably) be fine

But If I don’t get to kiss you soon

Lips on mine

Our hands

Intertwined

How’d it

Take so long to