Kat's art blog

i'm generally pro drug freedom but it does really bother me that kratom is so widely sold all over the place now while at the same time flying under the radar so nobody really warns you about quite how bad it is or how much it can fuck you up and there aren't significant enough warnings on the packaging about how addictive it is. by the time i ended up in the hospital i was in such intensely bad withdrawal they said it rivaled fentanyl and that's what they'd have guessed i was on if they didn't know. i was in the emergency room for days. i was diagnosed with incredibly severe opioid use disorder and given a pretty aggressive dose of buprenorphine that i'm still on 10 months later like its Bad. it turns out kratom isn't just "like an opioid" it actually triggers your brain the same exact way and exhausts the same receptors and you WILL give yourself OUD if you aren't really fucking careful with it. don't start taking it as an opioid alternative, i promise it's not a good alternative. by the end of my addiction i was spending hundreds of dollars (that i didn't have! that could've been rent!) a WEEK on it, and i hadn't been high in months. i almost died. it's just not worth it. if you're gonna do it please please be safe and watch for the signs.

You actually cannot skip to being good at a creative endeavour that you haven't put much practice into. You cannot trick your way out of the 'knows that your work is not what you want it to be but don't know how to improve it' stage by planning or reading or talking about it really really hard. At some point you just have to craft through it until your brain finds it's own unique way back to the 'everything I make slaps' stage and be prepared to start the cycle all over again. You just have to make that project you're excited about slightly less good than you want it to be. (Says this standing in a pool of blood and covered in blood and also coughing up a little blood)

everyone stop reblogging this I hate to be reminded of my own good advice