Oh,, oh Occtis....the way all he can still say about his brutal, traumatic death is, "I don't know, he just killed me--that is what I remember." Just the violence, the gory details; but not being able to grasp, to fathom, would could have possibly led them to this. The moment Occtis could only stare helplessly at Ethrand and not understand why his own brother would hurt him like this. Knowing only that his family sees him as disposable, as worthless--

How did it feel, to hear Julien say, "...or do you carry this thread of darkness within you, beyond just this soft, sweet boy persona you put on for all of us?" How many times did Occtis ask himself the same thing? "Like an apple never falls that far from the tree." Fearing that he too would turn out like his family; the anxiety over how much he looks like his family, how others see him for being Tachonis. Occtis who just wanted to run away the first chance he could get, to escape--

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just a little doodle of all the hermits im watching this season :) i WILL keep up with all of them. i WILL NOT fall behind. i WILL. strike me down if i dont. you wont have to because i WILL.

I'm bored, so here's a WIP  ٩( ᐛ )و