It's been a year long struggle.
I really thought we were meant to be.
I really thought you enjoyed our differences like I did. Or as much as I did. I thought you were just scared for some reason.
You had some time to think about it, but you came back and realised it wasn't meant to be all along. You finally stood up and I'm happy. But you said it came at a cost. Seeing that being with me wasn't right for you.
In any case, I'm happy that you know what you want.
I wept so many tears thinking that we really were meant to be but it was so frustrating that we aren't together. Or that leaving you felt so horrible because I'm leaving someone, something very precious.
But now that I see I was really mistaken, our differences just led me to believe something a bit different from what was and that solidified into a strong faith and decision to love in me.
I don't really feel terrible for having loved or knowing that I can love so strongly and acceptingly.
But I suppose this is a feeling of death.. Something that has slipped away, pulled away, gone quiet.
I really was horribly mistaken. But I'm not going to blaming myself for opening my heart.
Goodbye, and all the best. I did enjoy hanging out and talking to you. Not so much all the mind boggling disagreements though. My feelings were real. They are. It's gut wrenching that you didn't come to the same conclusion as me and that I thought you did.
But I know you've made your decision. And I'll just have to cut loose this incredibly huge balloon I've tied onto myself that I thought was our happiness that really could be, that we can make happen because I'm ready to rise up and love.
It's really hard to let go, like you said. But seeing things now I definitely feel less sad than I was before feeling frustrated about why we were apart when I thought we should be together.
But I'm confused no longer. You know what you need. What I wanted didn't work out. I'll just have to continue my life and keep piecing the other pieces together. Figure out a new path.
Goodbye, someone really dear to me.
Truthfully I never knew I could love so hard and so real until I had the chance to. I won't regret my decisions that I make from the heart.
With every event I face head on, I'll only have more faith, more resilience for everything else.