Trying my best

“you okay, darling?”

taken   from   the   broadway   musical.   feel   free   to   change   the   pronouns   as  needed!   ( tw:   mental   illness,   grief,   self-harm,   drug   use,   suicide,  cursing. )

‘ it’s 4 in the morning, is everything ok? ‘

‘ you need to slow down. take some time for yourself. ‘

‘ great, thanks, i’m so glad i know that. ‘

‘ some days i think i’m dying. ‘

‘ it’s just another day. ‘

‘ it only hurts when i breathe. ‘

‘ we’re the perfect loving family. ‘

‘ mozart was crazy. ‘

‘ everything else goes away. ‘

‘ without a little lift, the ballerina falls. ‘

‘ use may be fatal. ‘

‘ love is blind. ‘

‘ love is insane. ‘

‘ i don’t feel anything. ‘

‘ our planet is poison. ‘

‘ this planet is pretty much broken beyond all repair. ‘

‘ i could be perfect for you. ‘

‘ we can be the one thing in this world that won’t hurt. ‘

‘ this is crazy. ‘

‘ i miss the pain. ‘

‘ nothing’s real. ‘

‘ i miss the mountains. ‘

‘ i miss my life. ‘

‘ it’s gonna be good. ‘

‘ do i look great? i am! ‘

‘ he’s not here. ‘

‘ do you dream or do you grieve? ‘

‘ this is fucked. ‘

‘ i know you’re hurting. i am too. ‘

‘ do you wake up in the morning and need help to lift your head? ‘

‘ do you know what it’s like to die alive? ‘

‘ you say that you’re hurting, it sure doesn’t show. ‘

‘ can you tell me what it is you’re afraid of? ‘

‘ can i touch you? ‘

‘ look at me. ‘

‘ tell me who to be. ‘

‘ you just don’t know who i am. ‘

‘ i love you as much as i can. ‘

‘ i am mystery. ‘

‘ i’m alive. ‘

‘ i’ll hurt you. i’ll heal you. ‘

‘ i’m the perfect stranger who knows you too well. ‘

‘ catch me, i’m falling. ‘

‘ you know what the problem with classical is? it’s so rigid, structured, you have to play the notes on the page. there’s no room for improvisation. ‘

‘ there’s a world where we can be free. ‘

‘ i could never be alone. ‘

‘ didn’t i see this movie? ‘

‘ you’re kidding, right? that’s bullshit. ‘

‘ our house was a home long ago. ‘

‘ i can’t get through this on my own. ‘

‘ wish i were here. ‘

‘ you don’t remember any of this? ‘

‘ i couldn’t give a flying fuck what’s normal. ‘

‘ we haven’t had a normal day in years. ‘

‘ you remind me of me, and how fucked up i can be. ‘

‘ why would you want to remember the things that hurt you? ‘

‘ i am more than memory. ‘

‘ what happens if the cut, the burn, the break was never in my brain, or in my blood, but in my soul? ‘

‘ medicine isn’t perfect, but it’s what we have. ‘

‘ i’m dancing with death, i suppose. ‘

‘ things will get better, you’ll see. ‘

‘ we tried to give you a normal life. i realize now, i have no clue what that is. ‘

‘ something next to normal would be okay. ‘

‘ we’ll get by. ‘

‘ am i crazy? ‘

‘ i might end up crazy. ‘

‘ i am the one who loved you. ‘

*  A VARIETY & MIXTURE OF JENNIFERS BODY PROMPTS, CHANGE PRONOUNS AS NEEDED / FITTING .

‘  hell is a teenage girl. ‘

‘  it smells like thai food in here. have you guys been fucking?  ‘

‘  you’re lime-green jello and you can’t even admit it to yourself.   ‘

‘  i’m a virgin. i’m a virgin. i’ve never even done sex. ‘

‘  do you buy all your murder weapons at home depot?   ‘

‘  god, you’re butch!  ‘

‘  i’m not even a backdoor-virgin anymore.   ‘

‘  i had to stay home and sit on a bag of frozen peas.  ‘

‘  you point them in the right direction, and shit gets real.   ‘

‘  my dick is bigger than his.   ‘

‘  oh! a puncture wound. god, that’s so emo…   ‘

‘  i recommend you shut the fuck up!  ‘

‘  you killed my fucking boyfriend!  ‘

‘  you goddamn monster, you dumb bitch!  ‘

‘  do you know how hard it is to make it as an indie band these days?   ‘

‘  satan is our only hope.  ‘

‘  and to do that, we’re going to have to butcher you. and bleed you.  ‘

‘  relax, i’m kidding about the face thing. ‘

‘  she’s just hovering… it’s not that impressive. ‘

‘  she can fly?  ‘

‘  god, do you have to undermine everything i do?   ‘

‘  you are such a player hater. ‘

‘  wow, nice come back, hannah montana.  ‘

‘  got anymore harsh digs?  ‘

‘  you know what? you were never a good friend.  ‘

‘  even when we were littler, you used to steal my toys.  ‘

‘  and now i’m eating your boyfriend.  ‘

‘  you can have anybody that you want, [name].  ‘

‘  how could i ever be insecure? i was the snowflake queen! ‘

‘  i thought you only murdered boys. ‘

‘  i go both ways.  ‘

‘  my tit.  ‘

‘  no, your heart.  ‘

‘  i am going… to eat your soul… and shit it out! ‘

‘  i mean, she’s actually evil. not high school evil.  ‘

‘  i will finish you if i have to. ‘

‘  you can barely even finish gym class.  ‘

‘  they took her in their spooky van with the windows all blacked out. ’

‘  i think i already died when you got here.  ‘

‘  but i woke up when i heard your voice.  ‘

‘  you’re killing people.  ‘

‘  no, i’m killing boys. ‘

‘  my skin is breaking out and my hair is dull and lifeess.  ‘

‘  i feel like one of the normal girls.  ‘

‘  i am a god.  ‘

‘  i had one of my night terrors again.  ‘

‘  what did you dream about?  ‘

‘  i can take care of myself. i’ve been using bowflex.  ‘

‘  i saved you because i’m a badass mom!  ‘

‘  why do you need him? huh?  ‘

‘  how are you going to get alcohol?  ‘

‘  i’ll just play hello titty with the bartender.  ‘

‘  they’re showing rocky horror at the bijou next friday night… ‘

‘  i don’t like boxing movies… ‘

‘  he thinks you’re a virgin. i heard them talking.  ‘

‘  it’s true. it’s on wikipedia.  ‘

‘  uh, okay… why don’t you narc me out?  ‘

‘  i’ve got the cops in my back pocket, [name]. ‘

‘  i’m a fucking cadet, remember?  ‘

‘  are you pms’ing or something? ‘

‘  i’m a different person now.  ‘

‘  you might get lucky for once in your miserable life! ‘

‘  i need you frightened. i need you hopeless.  ‘

‘  you need a mani bad.  ‘

‘  we come here tonight to sacrifice the body of…  ‘

‘  i’m scared of what’s happening to you.  ‘

‘  i just got aquamarine on dvd. it’s about a girl who’s, like, half sushi.  ‘

‘  ya know what this is for? huh? it’s for cutting boxes! ‘

‘  you give me such a wetty.  ‘

‘  i don’t tell whoppers, and i’m not crazy.  ‘

‘  you’re totally lesbi-gay.  ‘

‘  i think you might want to talk to the school shrink.  ‘

‘  dude, that is a hot murder weapon.  ‘

‘  those jeans are hella low. I can almost see your front butt.  ‘

‘  it’s a rock show. this is my rock look.  ‘

‘  i’ve been through the occult section of the library five times. ‘

‘  our library has an occult section?  ‘

‘  sit like a lady, no one wants to see your kiki.  ‘

‘  where… where are we going?  ‘

‘  you don’t have to talk if you don’t want to.  ‘

‘  i never heard you drop the f - bomb before. ‘

‘  life is too short to be moping around.  ‘

‘  mmm, you can totally tell they’re from the city.  ‘ 

‘  what’s wrong with you? besides the obvious surface flaws.  ‘

‘  listen, it’s, uh, really dangerous out here.  ‘

‘  we can play boyfriend/girlfriend like we used to.  ‘

‘  i’m having the best day since, like, jesus invented the calendar.  ‘

‘  moveon.org.  ‘ 

‘  best friends don’t keep secrets.  ‘

‘  if you’re bitten by a demon and you live, you just might absorb some of the demon’s abilities.  ‘

‘  i think it’s important to reach out to our fans in the shitty areas, too.  ‘

‘  what’s your name again?  ‘ 

‘  pms isn’t real, [name].  ‘

‘  she must’ve had sex with a blowhole or something.  ‘ 

‘  a very bad, very damaged person…  ‘

*  CHANGE ANY PRONOUNS AS NEEDED .  TAKEN FROM SEASONS 3 - 4 .

‘ I wanted to see things like you. I needed that. ‘

‘ I don’t know what I believe anymore. ‘

‘ I just know I have to live with what I’ve done. ‘

‘ You don’t ease pain. You overcome it. And we will. ‘

‘ Would you really condemn the human race to die in six months? ‘

‘ We’ll figure something out. We always do. ‘

‘ I know this world can suck, but at least it’s real.  ‘

‘ How you reach the goal matters, too. I’m sorry I didn’t teach you that.  ‘

‘ If you pull that, you will be killing everyone.  ‘

‘ I let my need for revenge put me on the wrong side. I don’t want that for you. ‘

‘ I never thought I’d see you again. ‘

‘ The flame will protect me. I don’t know how I know, I just know. ‘

‘ Can you hear me? I know you’re in there. Come back to me. I need you. ‘

‘ You’ve got it wrong. I wasn’t tortured. I mean, yeah, I was punched a couple of times. ‘

‘ It was peaceful. Safe. People were happy. ‘

‘ You have a real gratitude problem, you know that? ‘

‘ Are we ever gonna be done fighting? ‘

‘ We’re gonna build a house on a lake. We’re gonna plant corn. And raise chickens. ‘

‘ You’re really willing to trust that guy with your life? ‘

‘ I’m glad you’re back, brother. ‘

‘ You believe that to defeat an enemy who will stop at nothing, you must stop at nothing. ‘

‘ How’s that different than “blood must have blood”? ‘

‘ When the choice is “fight or die,” there is no choice. ‘

‘ You’re still you, right? Artificial intelligence hasn’t taken over your brain? ‘

‘ You don’t want saving. You want somebody to fight with you. ‘

‘ I didn’t flee the conclave because I was afraid I would lose. ‘

‘ How many lives would be lost to pay for those I would save? ‘

‘ You killed 300 of my people. Now you’ll take 300 cuts by my hand. ‘

‘ It’s been safe for you to come down for over a year now. Why haven’t you? ‘

‘ If we don’t, she died in vain. And I’m not gonna let that happen. ‘

‘ I left her behind. I left her behind, and we all die anyway. ‘

‘ Wouldn’t it be easier to just go outside? ‘

‘ I may not hate you anymore. ‘

‘ Who knew you were a secret badass? ‘

‘ You suck at talking people into things, you know that, right? ‘

‘ The time of the commanders is past. The time of the flame is past. ‘

‘ It takes the end of the world for me to say it. ‘

‘ What do I say? I say that death wave can kiss my ass. ’

‘ Now, either you lead us into battle or get the hell out of my way. ‘

‘ We shouldn’t be lining up to die. We should be fighting for our right to live. ‘

‘ Whatever choice I make, someone always dies. ‘

‘ Well, not shooting me — that was the right choice.  ‘

‘ It felt good to be safe. I never felt that way before. ‘

‘ We know that if that door stays shut, the human race survives. Please. ‘

‘ You’re gonna have to make it a kill shot. It’s the only way you’re gonna stop me. ‘

‘ This isn’t about saving my people. It’s about saving the human race. ‘

‘ I don’t choose pain. I choose life. Let’s get to work. ‘

‘ They stole the bunker. They’re not my people anymore. ‘

‘ Do I have to spell it out for you? You’re not enough to make me want to live. ‘

‘ I am not worth dying for. Save yourself. Let the rest of us go. ‘

‘ I must have missed the election that made you chancellor again. ‘

‘ I fight for death. When I win, no one will be saved.  ‘

‘ We can’t save them if they don’t want to be saved. ‘

‘ If you’re gonna go out, might as well go out with a view. ‘

‘ Every time we think that, something bad happens. ‘

‘ Hunting for someone else to kill? What is wrong with you people? ‘

‘ I know that, but you just said it, we have no choice. ‘

‘ You want to survive out here alone? Let me help you. ‘

‘ It’s pathetic, right? She hates me, but I keep coming back for more.‘

‘ She’s your sister. She’s blood. She’ll come around and see how special you are. ‘

‘ What happens once you’ve turned us all into nightbloods?  ‘

‘ For years, I reveled in death and violence. I killed my own brother.  ‘

‘ I think peace is overrated. It’s the fighters who survive. ‘

‘ With all due respect, your son would be ashamed of you. ‘

‘ So what? I survive long enough for everyone else to die?‘

‘ You know, someday when all this is over, you’re gonna realize that foam bit was funny. ‘

‘ [Name], it’s not your blood that defines you – it’s your heart. ‘

‘ Do you really think you deserve to be saved?‘