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Hi, uh, hello. my mom said to ask how's it goi ng. [a weighty pause.] So i wanted to know if you're still uh destroying your lungs, aster. I mean we haven't really talked in awhile so i guess that's kind of upfront. I wish i could sa y LMAO over voicemail. Or LOL or uh ROFL but veronica told me that's what millennials say so she says I should stop using it. Uh any way I was just checking in. You know i saw a butterfly today that reminded me a lot of y ou mainly because it had you know like eyes that looked a lot like yours. Black and beady and stuff i mean sorry if that's mean. But it w as getting chased by a caterpillar and i know you're going to laugh at me for saying this bu t i swear it reminded me of me and you. Like maybe you became a butterfly first and left me behind but also butterflies die first whic h i guess is accurate don't tell my mom i sai d that she'll yell at me for being nihilistic or something. Anyway. Uh. On the topic of ca terpillars and butterflies did you know but terflies have really curly tongues? I've been looking into them a lot recently cause your dad told me they're your favorite animal. I 'm not going to lie i think they look really c reepy but whatever i guess. LOL. Did i serio usly just say LOL out loud? Ell, oh, ell. That's worse. Uh but...yeah. I think butterflies...er i mean they're creepy yeah but don't you th ink it'd be nice to be one? You can be all gro ss and everything on the inside and only the people who really really love you will see it or the people who really really want to know mo re about you. So yeah i guess what i mean is i'd really like to be a butterfly cause you're al l pretty on the outside and gruesome on the inside and people never really check. But yo u did check, aster, i saw your research paper s and shit your dad showed me the other day and he was crying too hard to explain them s o i read them myself and i cried too. So mayb e what i really mean is i wish i could be your b utterfly but i guess in the end you were really mine. And now i'm all gross and not even pret ty for it cause everyone sees me being ugly ov er you. Let me know if john green was right ab out anything. Is there hope in heaven or is the re just more cigarettes? You never know I gues s until you get there.

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day 1: morning greetings/late night rendezvous