樊长玉

樊长玉 — FAN CHANGYU

16岁 she thy did npd adhd cd

host cat (kin) lord ... maaoo ! 玉妖

asks & dms always open ♡ (excl. -15)

♡ — tagging system

# ♡ — fan changyu ;; regular posts from me.

# ♡ — fan changning ;; an alter's tag. use thym/thyne.

# ♡ — butchering pigs ;; rants, usually about endos.

# ♡ — chasing jade ;; responses to asks.

byi — i am attached to my sources (ming yi, fan changyu, the herta) and due to my npd, i see myself as the one true person that understands them. attempts to argue with me on this will fall on deaf ears. em, i can be pretty confrontational and am inept at talking to people who are emotionally sensitive...

no dni — it doesn't mean i won't make fun of you if you're an endo, radqueer, etc. though. ^_^

this is a side blog. main blog stays undisclosed because i know some of you are absolute freaks! unless you somehow befriend me..

I had a really similar experience except I don’t know if the others were pro endo or not. Its insane how much misinformation there is in the community

for the longest time, i felt completely alone in my experiences because i didn't match what they insisted was "normal." i didn't consistently have a headspace. my gatekeepers couldn't just summon alters to front at will the way theirs supposedly could. everyone around me seemed to experience things in the same neat & tidy way while i felt pressured into pretending that i was just like them to avoid scrutiny.

i had to redo my syscovery from scratch last year because so much of what they taught me (& what the community normalized in general) felt harmful and incorrect.

you know what happened once i did that? i could actually see experiences similar to mine reflected in medical texts, rather than feeling like i was forcing myself to fit some standard. funny, isn't it? somehow, i was more of a "faker" in their community than i ever was in ours.