I’m Glad
I'm glad
To know that if I died
Nothing would change
That if that knife I hold to my chest every night
Would Finnaly pierce that skin
Would you be proud of me then?
To know that you don't have to worry about your one mistake?
It's okay, I knew everything
You told me, remember?
Those nights you would stand and beat me
Calling me names with such terror,
Even the satan gets scared when he hears you
But you continue... Why?
Because I displease you?
I try my best, yet you don't care
It's like I'm invisible
No matter what I do...
Except you can abuse me, and I can't stop it
Don't worry, after all my life of this,
I'll Finnaly be able to deal with pain
But not with the words, you slit my neck with
But all this pain is okay... Because as long as I see your smile... It's all worth it
But tell me... Is it all worth it for you? To watch my smile, not knowing I cry at night because of you? Not knowing that everything I did... I did because I wanted to hear you say "good job" but I never heard it.... At least not to me... It's always him him him.... He's perfect isn't he? Just the child you've always wanted... Well what do you expect from me? I'm your mistake, and accident.
Try telling an orphan that their parents never left, try telling one that someone will get them.... But not me... I'm stuck there while you point and laugh....














