06292015: “Take pride in how far you have come and have faith in how far you can go”
On a tuesday evening, instead of doing my final paper I’m looking at my old posts and listening to Zelda on the piano?
I say this over and over again, but I cannot believe how fast time has gone and that really I’m almost done with school. All the sweat, tears, and smiles are finally becoming worth it.
I’m scared and excited. I can wait but I can’t wait to finish. I feel like I can take on the world but I still want to be in my little bubble.
I have the right to say that I am proud with how far I’ve become not only as a student but as an individual as well. At the beginning of the program we were asked to write letters to our future selves. I really hope I get to see those letters again. I know what I wrote and I really want to see how pathetic and sucky I was.
I went to nursing school with one thing in mind at the time...and that was to get away. Get away from anything and anyone that reminded me of him. To get away and finally take some time for myself which was long over due.
In some cases I don’t feel like I’ve changed but I guess if I really had to say so I guess I have. I’m no longer a settler, I don’t tolerate a lot of crap anymore and to be honest it was pretty bad. I’ve gotten a better sense of control of my emotions thought my face probably isn’t that much better. I speak my mind more and question things when necessary.
A coworker of mine told me she noticed this “new edgy side” to me. However, I don’t really see it as edgy it’s just common sense. Why should and why did I tolerate a lot of crap back then? Why am I settling for people who bring me down rather than support me? Why am I gonna let people walk all over me like a door mat?
Regardless, I will take this as a good thing. I need to be somewhat tough especially once I get into the real world. The only thing separating me and the real world now is my ATI and the boards... Bring it on world!
