Mental Illness Blog

I like you because you use me, and being used is easier for me to comprehend than being loved

Having BPD and attaching to people really strongly and dissociating a lot is so weird because like…. I will absolutely remember you and your birthday and the significance of loved ones in your life and learn your favorite songs and colors and what your aesthetic is, but like, I won’t remember my own age or the month or the year or why I feel certain things so strongly or why some things have a lot of associations with me. In other words, billie eilish was absolutely right when she said “Help, I lost myself again, but I remember you”

Is anyone here from a family of bigger people or people who just are big on food? And when they comment on your weight loss it doesn’t feel valid or real because it feels like they’re just saying that due to the fact that their idea of ‘skinny’ is morphed from them being so big? I don’t believe them when they say I’m 'skinny’ because I know they’re only saying that because I’m just smaller than them.