Cersana

my bf of almost 3 years has recently come out as asexual. this helps support the lack of physical intimacy we've had in our relationship. it was his idea to open the relationship last year at that time to fulfill my needs and his fantasy. we've experienced a lot going through open and closed moments, but it always seemed like closing it was at the peek of my relationships/fwb. after he identified as asexual, he asked to close it again saying that it made him feel inadequate. i respected that, as much as it pained me.

we've been in counseling since last year. it's really helped. i'm not the best at expressing myself verbally so for me, it's been extremely helpful.

yesterday, he tells me that he is ok with having it open on my side because he doesn't want to stop me from being me and he "loves me too damn much" (that was fucking sweet). i feel conflicted. is this just a ticking time bomb for when he's not ok with it again and I have to cut things off yet again?! I want to be respectful of his feelings and his asexuality, so i am hesitant to do this... yet, the thought of losing that part of myself makes me sad. and the last thing I want is resentment which leads to going our separate ways.