naivegal.13

This post is dedicated to those who are going through some really tough situations right now, but are holding on and not giving up. Keep going. Times will be better, lights will shine brighter. You can do this.

Loneliness is always something I’ve struggled with. I’ve always been very introverted, and I often find it difficult to connect with people on a meaningful, real level. I mean, I generally get along with people pretty well and have quite a few people that I interact with on a regular basis through work, but I still feel so isolated sometimes. It’s amazing how we can be surrounded by so many people and yet still feel so alone. I have a few close friends around here, but recently they’ve been too busy to give me much of their time, and I’ve been feeling more alone than I have in a long time. I’m the kind of person who tends to invest a lot in the people I care about, always trying to do whatever I can to help them out and make sure they’re doing OK, so it’s really hard when no one seems to be willing to do that for me. When I feel like I have no one that I can be completely honest and just talk to on nights like tonight when my heart is heavy and I can feel my depression pressing in. I keep telling myself I just need to be more outgoing, put myself out there, meet some new people, but I just don’t have the energy. I’m so tired, and not just physically, but mentally and emotionally as well. I don’t know how to kick this feeling, but what I do know is I’m not sure how much longer I can keep going like this.

Lol. I feel u

I can’t believe it took this long to try to make peace with who I am, what I want, what I need, and take deep breaths while doing so. It’s time to make peace with myself. To love myself for all that I am. To appreciate everything instead of expecting everything. To want what I already have rather than pray and wish for more, more, more.  A sincere and deep apology to all those I’ve hurt in the process of hurting myself. I’m trying to become a better me. A better me I wholeheartedly accept and love. A better me to love you. 

Holy shit

Damn I’m in love 😔

Noooo can’t be no moreee