I'm fucking tired/gay

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I hate that with every other trans person, binary or non-binary I'm very progressive and reaffirm that everyone is valid regardless if you're gender non conforming, trans but doesn't want/can't transition, be passing or not, shave or not shave your body hair and etc, but with myself, I'm the most transphobic person ever

I can't wear something that isn't oversized/baggy without being paranoid that my chest is too visible, I can't help but wish to paint my nails or try to put highlights in my hair or even let it grow to look like a cool metalhead if I wasn't discouraged by my transphobic parents who only encourage it because "it makes me look more feminine" and shatter every fiber of encouragement that I had inside of me

And I'm not even a very feminine transmasculine person, I actually am very typically masculine. I like looking "manly", do "manly things", be treated and seen like a man, be called by he/him, dress in "male" clotches... I just like expressing myself as slightly more androgynous/agender way than "macho man, typical straight cis guy gigachad" way

Fuck... I wish I didn't had dysphoria or fragile masculinity at all