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She talked about karma and how being with her ex felt like bad karma from a debt she had owed in another life. I’m not sure what debt I had to repay to my ex either. I said well, at least we were able to meet each other. For us both, hard truths and unexpected friendship may be two things that made it through those two weeds of men.

Had the immaculate experience of not one but two rooftop sunsets this month and I vow to never take them for granted again.

In this last year I started keeping track of words I do not know and their definitions, I write them down across different notebooks or tabs on my phone. Words that strike me because of their sounds. Without realizing it I mirrored the actions of my grandmother, who in the last year has deteriorated immensely due to dementia. As a child I remember her at the kitchen table, the morning light streaming through the curtains. She read the paper and tried to understand the humor of the comic section and would often ask me to explain the jokes. English being her second language, she had a dictionary beside her and a notebook, pausing to jot down words and definitions. She was left-handed then and could remember my name.