Your absence from my life is obvious

My thoughts drift to what I would've told you on a certain day

Just having someone I was excited to share my day with was enough

Even if there was never more that was enough

It's a crying shame having feelings for you ruined that

I don't quite understand it still

I loved you platonically

Romantic feelings came and faded

But you don't want anything to do with me because they happened?

I guess I should've ignored them instead of trying to talk them out at the time but

Damn it makes our friendship feel like a farce

Because how could you throw something like that away just because of a fading feeling?

Idk my gut tells me I'm in the wrong somehow but my mind is the opposite

I don't think I'll ever understand

Maybe I'm meant to have this pain in my stomach from time to time

Still I wish you well and hope we both can move on

One day I'll get this thorn out my side

And you'll be nothing but a sweet memory

Seems like I'm always the first one to reach out to the crowd

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You said you'd be there and then you just turned your back around

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