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Love my sammy!!!

Now hear me out…

Gaze of the Boy-King

Started watching supernatural. Here’s my first fanart: Sam Winchester, a WIP. Through making this, I realized what sad puppy eyes Sam has. Even though what he’s doing here is not ostensibly sad or puppydog. Can you guess what he’s up to? Follow for the finished piece.

I think it is that melancholic dichotomy, the way Sam’s self-effacing—and at times diminutive-energy, contrasts with a certain threatening quality (that comes with his size, demonic blood, and lifetime spent killing), that makes his character so interesting in its contradictions. He tries so hard to be normal compared to Dean—he seems like the more normal of the two outwardly, but all he’s known is instability and violence. That shows through the cracks on several occasions. But he’s kind of mournful about it.

Painting him also made me note how much Sam’s face hardened over the years. He still has his baby fat here, whereas in the season I’m on (9) he’s become very cut and angular. I guess in a way, that change can be tracked in his psyche as well as his physical exterior.

I’m not finished with the series, so no spoilers past s8 in the notes please! (assuming there are any notes)

Idk write who's pov this😭

like his whole arc screams religious queer kid coded. the language around him is always “unclean,” “freak,” “disease”

sam’s whole life is this desperate attempt to scrub himself clean, to be “normal,” to pray the bad parts away. tell me that doesn’t echo the way queer kids raised religious are taught to erase themselves just to be acceptable.

that episode with the monster girl literally hiding in the closet when he was a teen?? hello?? not even subtle. sam is drawn to what’s hidden, forbidden, and every time he reaches for it, he’s punished.

and then you’ve got the actual quotes: “it’s not something you’re doing, it’s what you are.”

“this disease pumping through my veins… i’m a whole new level of freak!”

“you’re unclean. in the biblical sense.”