THE BEST OF YOU.

well, she didn’t put up a fight at all. cason wasn’t sure whether to deem that alleviating or pathetic but he was at least in delight to know he no longer had curious eyes sported on him. what even was the point of staring anyway. he found it repugnant at best. “why did you do it?” asked cas. “why the hell did you stare at me?” 

“did i say it was okay to paint me?” demanded cas. he was on the brink of calling her names but he thought it would attract more attention he clearly did not need. he just hated it when people did things without his permission. he wanted to be in control of everything, he wanted to give consent and permittance. he didn’t care if she was a girl, he was pissed. he was still crouching but he lunged slightly trying to catch her book. “give me that.” 

“honestly, fuck you.” snapped cas. of course there would be people like this guy around when it was clear he needed to be left alone. some fuckers just couldn’t get the message. maybe they did but still wanted to mess around with him. just like everyone. “if i tell you to stop, then stop.” he couldn’t hold his anger. he knew he should just leave but he was too fed up to leave this one in peace.

“wait.” curiosity got the best of him from the looks of it. sure, he wanted this guy to piss off but there was something about him that pulled cas. like he was someone he had seen before. was he famous? he looked around and saw a few more bystanders taking quick glances at the taller man. maybe having some famous acquaintances could be beneficial. “do i know you? i feel like i’ve seen you before but i can’t place my finger on it.” 

“whatever.” said carson, though deep down he felt like he was being utterly chidish. he had a habit of acting like a brat when he didn’t get what he wanted or when his comfort zone was interrupted. he just wanted peace, now he couldn’t get it anymore. “you ruined the mood.. now i can’t just stay calm.” he said under his breath. “dammit.” 

cas took offense quick. he noticed the drawing book she held and could feel his worry reaching to a new degree. he was a private person and he didn’t enjoy people doing things that involved him without his permission. he had to deal with a lot of similar crap when he was in high school. bullies who liked to take pictures of him then post them for the world to see. “are you... what were you doing.” he almost snarled with his eyes narrowing. “give me that.” he said, demanding. 

“what the hell?” that was such a strange way to begin a conversation even for his standard, a guy who didn’t interact much with the society. he thought of it as interesting though at least what came out of this stranger’s mouth wasn’t anything mundane. “you hungry or something?” asked cas, raising his eyebrows. 

“there’s only you and me here and you’ve been staring fo about what? ten minutes? don’t act like i’m dumb.” he said in almost a snarl. he didn’t like to be around people in general but it’s worse when they begin to show attitude toward him. why the hell couldn’t they just leave him alone? he took another bite of his apple, face grumpy. 

others didn’t blend well with him no matter how kind they sounded, so when she offered him something to add to his breakfast cas just shook his head in utter distrust. he was already too annoyed to act like he cared for anyone or anything for that matter. it was his usual mood though, it had nothing to do with them. he liked to consider himself a social outcast. “this is nothing. it’s simple so i took it.” said cas, he didn’t know why he even bothered to explain. “save it. just don’t stare at me anymore. okay?” 

lowering his apple, cas lifted his eyebrows in curiosity. at least he had an actual answer. granted it was a weird one. “i’m not sure if that’s sarcasm or an actual compliment. if it’s a compliment then you need serious work on your skills.” cas never filtered himself. it had thrown him into many troubles but he didn’t mind it. he took another bite. “are you going to keep staring or what?” 

“well then, drift off someone else, why don’t you?” cas was even more annoyed by now. feeling like he was just wasting his time speaking to someone without an actual purpose. he went to subtitute his apple with one stick of cigarette, placing it between his lips. “it’s uncomfortable when people stare. and very rude.” he added, snobbish. 

sighing and shaking his head, cas knew there was no getting out. he hated conversations but he also hated himself for not being able to pull out of one even when he wanted to. he thought he just hated it when shit became way too complicated. he didn’t have much energy to actually argue. “having a dog is going to take a lot of effort. you need to be sure you can dedicate yourself to the work.” he amitted. 

cas decided to go have breakfast outside, a park he used to only pass by but he had seen how empty it was. he thought it would be good for him to have a quiet morning, only disturbed by a few. the twenty two years old boy sat with his legs crossed on the cold grass. he bit on his apple, glancing skyward when he noticed a pair of eyes trained on him. “i can see you staring at me. can you please not stare at me?”

cas didn’t like being talked to. he just wanted to seek for peace but of course somebody had to come in striking a random conversation he didn’t care about at all. though he thought maybe if he played along they could leave him be at the end? taking a long drag of his smoke, cason shook his head. “i don’t think you’re supposed to keep squirrels. they should stay out there in the nature.” cason replied.