The Bearer of the Curse

and you said you loved me too

threw your arm around my waist

that casual way you always do

and i told you that i loved you

it took everything i had

to push those words across my lips

and it seemed to make you glad

and i told you that i loved you

on my best friend’s wedding day

you said it back, then kissed me

You shed your uncomfortable skin

The lie that you have lived

That you are one of them

This monstrous form suits you better

Although some will prize your hide

And chase it to take for their own

Or simply want to kill you for acknowledging the truth of yourself

But is this

Truly

The truth?

Are you a monster? Is this form monstrous, a beast with think inhuman hide.

You can feel it writhing in your gut

Tendrils - no -

Tentacles

Trying to

Crawl

c

r

e

e

push their w

a

y

Out of your body and up into the

fra

g

m

t

e

d

W

orld. They writhe

Like some horror from the

d

e

e

p

Some monster with tentacles

You can

feel them

B

E

N

E

A

T

H

Y

O

U

R

S

K

I

N

ow you understand as they push through

Burst out

Blood pouring to the ground

You are the monster with the tentacles

Embrace

You wish

Wish she would

Em

brace

You.

You seek out small places

Corners closets caves

You feel comfortable in the dark and the pressure

Safety

It feels like home

It is home

Never forget you are a monster

You belong in the dark corners

You reflect the fear that proper people have

That somewhere

(In their own dark corners)

They might be a little bit like you

You belong in the empty spaces

Theirs is the only embrace you will ever know