Cry Havoc and Let Slip the Geographers of War!

I swear that I keep coming across people who make me want to quote this line verbatim...

W is going into QUARANTINE! because she went to the conference today! She had a super big blast, but it's a week long thing where everyone gets the crud and stuff, and so this time she gets that side of the house and I get this side! Reversal is weird!

This time I have to cook for her and everything! And... more importantly, I don't have her to help me out and around so I'm gonna have to suck things up and figure it out.

The referral went through to the next level for either a power wheelchair or scooter.

It's starting to feel more real now. I'm using my office chair as a makeshift right now which is helping a lot.

But yeah, I'm hurting like fuck which makes the whole separation even harder.

I'll be sleeping on the camping cot in the living room... which will be interesting too because it's a lot lower and might be hard to get on and off of.

I dunno... it's... a lot to process so I haven't. Literally haven't. It's not real until it is, and even then, denial is a strong fucking thing.

Might not be a healthy mechanism, but things change so much with me that the moment i get used to something or accept it, it's changed so why bother?

I just want to be active again. I want my freedom of movement again. I need that.

I'm still debating joining the YMCA for a year... because next year the local pools are all free... Benefit of turning 50!!!!

Went to the Library today to pick up a hotspot for W's conference this week.

While there, we also went for a small walk in the park and to the lake. W did a lap and saw some ducky friends and spent time with two big dogs. I sat on the bench and got to meet a fish.

Man, what a life it's been. I keep thinking that just a "few years ago" I was doing this shit

and then I hurt my back falling through the roof on a fire, and breathed in some nasty chemicals on a brush fire and ended up like this for a bit

Wheelchair and oxygen were no fun.

But... I got a bit better! Mostly better. Somewhat better. I kept going to school, went back to work even!

and then I wound up back here again

But once again, I got better and went back to work

I even started to do pool rehab work to help with my back and weight gain from the steroids for my lungs

and then one day I lost the vision in my left eye right out of the blue and started having to wear these glasses full time, and I was spending a lot more time in the hospital.

With w by my side, I ended up doing a lot of testing and stuff, no real health emergencies or changes though except for becoming diabetic from the med changes

So many times going and get stabbing and stuck and so much blood drawn and weird invasive procedures all to find out... nothing.

Then COVID hit and we ended up living by the water after a quick sojourn to the AZ desert from the SFV. We've been going out almost 4 to 5 times a week, exploring, walking, relaxing, and just having a lot of fun!

So what now? One day I woke up and I had really bad cramping in my buttocks. It's gotten to the point where I can barely walk at all and my right hand goes numb and useless. Just like with my back injury.. one day I was fine, the next I wasnt. Just like with my eyesight, one day I could see, the next I couldn't. And now??? One day I was doing better walking with just the assitance of a cane, and now??? Now, we're thinking I'm going to need a power wheelchair.

I've had 3 ultrasounds, chest xray, lots of blood workup, and the other day we went for a CT scan.

I decided to start fresh.

My ListenBrainz account - https://listenbrainz.org/user/Mikes_-_Music/

My LastFM account - https://www.last.fm/user/Mikes_-_Music

I have tracked my music off and on since 2012 and that includes a lot of stuff from when W would use my phone and other misc crap like that. So I want to start fresh and new and see how my tastes are NOW.