Cry Havoc and Let Slip the Geographers of War!

Where to go, where to go, where to go....

I'm still struggling with my newfound limited mobility. Don't get me wrong, I was way limited before, but now??? Now??? Now I struggle to make it from the bedroom to the bathroom - just like 4-5 steps away.

But I don't hurt if I'm not moving. If I'm not moving I can go ANYWHERE and do ANYTHING! There's a mental disconnect between function and self image that is vast.

Like I keep thinking it'd be fun to go to the zoo and walk around, and then W reminds me that I am barely able to move from room to room... how would I do at a zoo?

The thing is, it's not just pain... it's functional. My legs aren't moving the way they're supposed to and we dont know why.

With pain, I can push through it, ignore it, and embrace the suck. With functional, I feel so out of control it's a mindfuck.

We're home.. my carotid went wump wump wump.

They did my entire abdomen and she was like "Your bladder is full, why is your bladder full? It's blocking half the stuff I want to see."

Look lady, Jardiance and the freaking water pill mean I'm single handedly responsible for most of the western drought at this point. Why is my bladder full? Because it's been over 10 mins since I last walked into a bathroom! My bladder is ALWAYS full... and like Old Faithful, it will erupt hourly if given the chance.

But we'll see what the results are for my kidneys and liver.

We've been going out so much, and staying out soooo much, because of the roof and street construction.

W was so looking forward to just sleeping in and staying home all weekend... until I reminded her we have to get up at 6am for my ultrasound appointment Saturday morning.

The wail of NOOOOoooooooo that came out of her was ungodly and so sad... it was mixed with ouchie laughs and sad tears and frustrated body shakes.

Went to the beach/jetty yesterday to sit and read for a bit and got to meet 3 very fun pigeons I named the 3 Stooges, 1 curious little ground squirrel who kept me company, saw a sea turtle, and w met some new pups and some bunnies!

So many thoughts but a quick one just for right now...

Saturday I have a triple ultrasound! Carotid, Kidneys, and Liver.

Hopefully it goes well.