𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔬𝔰 𝔫 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔠𝔞𝔩𝔪

i lost what i was never able to find

a change of my perspective now is too late

i know that today i'd do anything

to make you stay

you used to call me love

and i worried cause i thought i didn't feel the same at all

it's such a shame i was so afraid

just coz i wasn't used to feel loved that way

i know that i didn't show before

is it too late to show you i opened up my heart?

i'm so sorry for keeping you out

you're all that i'll ever be dreaming about

i listen to our old audio conversations

i read our old messages

nothing is the same

you used to call me everyday

remembering it brings a sad smile to my face

'cause now, if i don't do that, we'll never speak again

it's been more than a month since i've seen you

and the last time you didn't kiss me as i was used to

got my chest aching for keeping this hidden

so tough to try to feel okay when something is missing

gladly, it will pass

like it did for you

i'm holding on to this

trying to give my mind some peace

i was so naive...

i'm a mess. a completely mess turning 20.

im holding back tears for 1 hour n' 35 mins for now coz "whatever tears you apart, don't let it break your heart". time takes time to heal it. hope this pain in my chest goes away by the morning, i don't want to feel like this the entire day. i've always treated my bday like any other day, i shouldn't be expecting something new for this one. i need to put my feet on the ground again, i just don't know how.

happy birthday, 20 me. hope you get that 2020's new year vibe of peace and happiness again.

Sof: mama, mommy said she missed you.

Ari: *spills her water* wHat the heck Sof?!?!?

Meanwhile, Torres raises an eyebrow.

Sof: you did! when i said i miss her you said "i do, too"

Ari: *red* ok! enough for today, little miss.

At night, after the kid fell asleep, Callie walked Robbins to the door and opened it to her, giving a warm goodbye hug.