GOT THE BENDS FROM FALLING IN&OUT OF LOVE TOO FAST

-stare

-stare at the wall

-stare at the floor

-stare at the ceiling

-stare at your door

-stare at your skin

-stare at your hair

-stare at your knees

-stare at the stairs

-stare at your pocket knife

-stare at your phone

-stare at all your texts

-remember!! You aren't alone

-but, no one is answering

-no one is around

-stare at the window, or rather the curtains

-stare at the shower

-stare at the search bar

-how much of every medication that I own is a lethal dose

-don't stare at the suicide hotline that comes up,

-none of these pills are going to kill you, it seems

-stare at the wall

-stare at your empty fridge

-stare at your dirty dishes

-stare at your phone

-alone alone alone

-work Monday

-work Tuesday

-work Wednesday

-work Thursday

-work Friday

-have your weekend plans canceled yet again

-stare all Saturday

-stare all Sunday

-wake up Monday

-wake up Tuesday

-wake up Wednesday

-wake up Thursday

-wake up Friday

-try yoga

-try yard work

-try drinking water

-try texting your friends again

-stare stare stare stare stare

-stare for a minute

-for an hour

-it's been a day and still no answer. No one has talked to you. No one has seen you. No one has touched you. You haven't heard a familiar voice in a very long time. No one has hugged you in a very long time.

-go to the bar

-stare at your bank account

-the bartender suggests a cheaper drink. It's a kind gesture

-write out goodbye to mom

-write out goodbye to friends

-write goodbye to t

-the pen is out of ink

-shake the pen. Shake the pen, take a sip of your cheap cider, shake the pen, don't cry on the paper you're fucking smudging the ink

-walk home in a stupor

-say goodnight to your phone

-no new messages

-wake up on Monday

-don't die don't die don't die!

-wake up

-keep going, I guess

-are you awake?