I spent such a beautiful night with her tonight. She makes me better by allowing and accepting me in all my glory, flaws and all. I felt out intimacy grow with every laughter, every shared moment. And God, it this isn’t forever I’ll still thank you for allowing me to know someone like her. For making her a mirror of who I am. For making me bigger than the sum of what I’ll ever be.
The fear of missing out without her is a false illusion. Who says I cant have fun on my own? That every tinged experience cant be fun without her? I can differentiate time alone because I am a separate person. Perhaps its the overwhelming feeling of being in her presence. I must differentiate the part where I see something jn her that I couldnt provide for myself. That’s wher the insecurity lies. And it lies in me trusting myself and not abandoning myself by making routines for myself that benefit me. By showing up for myself. Always. By telling myself that I matter. I am my top priority before anyone else’s.
