so neil claims the bus seat in front of andrew despite kevin's irritation just to talk to him

"He put his phone away again, turned backward in the seat, and pushed up onto his knees to look at Andrew."

and during their THREE HOUR TALK neil realises something

"Neil grew up looking over his shoulder, but he'd always been looking for his father."

except NOW, in this moment, when neil looks over his shoulder to the seat behind him he sees andrew. it's such a beautiful moment because, both figuratively and literally, for once neil doesn't look over his shoulder in fear for his father. he looks for andrew.

it's the moment neil knows he's stopped living in desperate fear of his father, and neil begins living for andrew instead.

The morning after the Halloween party✨

found this on pinterest and it broke me

that one time he notices neil struggling to open a protein bar wrapper with injured hands, so he snatches it out of neil's fingers, rips it open and dumps it back into neil's hands without a word.

andrew shoving his incredibly thoughtful gift of armbands at neil then stomping away. and he's already slit the ends of the tape because he'd already anticipated it'd hurt neil's hands to open them

can't forget the iconic shower scene where andrew scrubbed him dry with a towel, 'careful around his injuries and too-vigorous everywhere else'.

was scared to take a breath, didn’t want you to move your head

inspired by this cute post

bonus under cut :3