Diary

Either way, got a big chunk of work done today, and even went outside for a little while. Didn't go to the gym, though. Also forgot to do my vocab. Still, day was a success.

feels like I wasn't there for a long time. I recall I felt sick this morning, too. Had a nap, tea, water with lemon and ginger, which sorted it.

in the afternoon I took my bike and explored the town and surrounding areas. first cherries have grown, but they're sour. followed some unnamed roads along endless fields.

then back home, work.

tasted suspiciously sour

tossed it, cut another one

tasted suspiciously sour

But merely a moment later, she said it was a joke. A joke that'd fallen flat.

one day, she told me her favourite flowers are sunflowers;

when i asked her why, she said, "because they always face the sun, and on cloudy days they face each other instead".

she likes them for a lie that is being spread online.

Today, it was the hottest day in this country since I moved here. It's a Northern country, so it's still a far cry from what I was used to... still, it was warm, and I didn't go outside to appreciate it.

Instead, I flip-flopped between hyperfocus on creative work with a tight deadline (hours of working at desk without looking up), and bouts of depression (hours of feeling isolated and dissociating).

just about a year or so after i moved out, the building was closed for good, due to structural risks. it still stands there, windows like empty eyes, towering over the smaller modern buildings.