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Rumination is probably the most common type of OCD compulsion, but I rarely see anyone talking about it. I've talked to multiple people diagnosed with OCD who didn't even recognize it as a compulsion.

Basically, if you have OCD you have terrible intrusive thoughts. They can be about anything, but common themes are fear of being a bad person, fear of hurting someone, fear of contamination. etc.

Rumination is when you get stuck in a spiral. Rumination is when you spend hours catastrophizing, overthinking, analyzing, telling yourself it's going to be okay.

I'll say it again:

Rumination is a compulsion.

Rumination is a compulsion, and that means you have to stop doing it.

I did ERP (exposure response prevention) for my OCD with a therapist! For 9 months! And it did help, but the idea didn't really click until I found this website a couple years later.

And Oh My God. It made things make so much more sense, and I was able to pull myself out of an episode even though I wasn't in therapy or on meds at the time.

Genuinely if you have OCD, or even if you suspect you have OCD, I'm begging you to read some of these articles.

Like this was genuinely life changing for me.

Here are some of the ones that were most helpful to me:

Defining Rumination

How to Stop Ruminating

ERP Exercises for Compulsive Rumination

EDIT: you can also take classes online for as low a fee as $10 for a few hours of instruction over video call. they also host an annual folk festival where you can learn the basics for free by going in person <- how i learned to weave

@caffeinatedsunbear and I were at it again thinking about homunculus al and what we have dubbed his "not al" form (following the "not mom" in fma canon,, what gets made as result of the human transmutation), the form that Dante takes back and nurses back to a "more human" state of being

"But anyways something about like, barely staying together? Connections between limbs and skin and all that have been loosened by the transmutation marks/lingering disintegration of being torn apart by truth on the day they tried to commit human transmutation" "Or like you know when you cut a piece of paper into like parallel lines from alternating ends of the paper and you get left with a long string of paper that switchbacks" "like that, but a body"

May I present the best apple:

@redrobin-detective it is in fact a really great subversion of the “teenage protagonist successfully has the Adult Institution scrambling and fumbling, due to his cunning teenage wiles.” Ed DOES fancy himself cunning, but he’s literally only getting away with this because Bradley Is Letting Him. For the first several seasons they’re just letting him.