CaffeinatedNeet

🖤 Please don’t report, just block! This account is for all of my venting since I have nobody to talk to since I always isolate myself from other people and I don’t exactly have the money for therapy! I would much prefer to shout out all of my issues into an endless void of the internet! (╥﹏╥)>💻

🖤 The Life of a NEET and Hikikomori!

TW’s! ❤️‍🩹

🤍 To make this absolutely clear, I don’t want to encourage anyone to recreate any real-life harm to themselves because of my posts! I don’t condone or encourage people to hurt themselves, this account is meant for my own vents and frustrations. (_　_|||)

🖤 Anyways, what I’ll be posting on this account would be referencing my own struggles. I’ll be speaking about my Sexual Trauma; Self-inflicted harm; Suicidal Ideations; Substance Use; Depression; Anxiety; Self-Isolation; and overall my Erratic Behavior.

(I’m heavily aware of my own issues, and it’s a possibility I’m also undiagnosed with a couple mental disorders as I refuse to get help or tested because of money and the fear of being judged by doctors. I know I’m not mentally okay)

ABOUT ME! (◞ ‸ ◟ㆀ)

🖤Sex/Pronouns: Female (She/Her)

🖤 Age: 21-years-old

🖤 Race: Native American

🖤 Identity: Greysexual and Biromantic

🖤 Relationship Stats: Single

🖤Favorite Food(s): Spaghetti or Salad with ginger dressing!

🖤 Favorite Drink(s): Mogu Mogu Strawberry or Monster Energy

🖤 Favorite Animal(s): Domesticated Cats Or Deers!

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My Interests! 🎧

🖤 I absolutely love Video Games! So far my fixations are Marvel Rivals; Minecraft; Sims 4; The Outlast Trials; Roblox; and Date Everything!

🖤 Digital and Traditional Art! (I might post some on this account)

🖤 I enjoy baking, I tend to always bake peanut Butter cookies whenever I’m feeling sad or a little lonely.

🖤I’m heavily into Fandoms since I don’t feel too alone and absolutely adore fanart or fanon comics!

🖤 Speaking of Fandoms, I’m also heavily invested into self-shipping or now known as Yumeshipping? (Still calling it Self-shipping!)

🖤 I quite enjoy watching Lolcow Content, it’s a guilty pleasure of mine to indulge yet again I also enjoy hearing the people’s voices whenever they cover the topic. (I LOVE SmokeyMcc or Kiwi Tapes!)

🖤 I also enjoy watching Anime! (Love to have recommendations!)

🖤And lastly with my interests I also enjoy expanding my collections of my interests! I’ll keep collecting until I die! Haha..

FANDOMS! o(╥﹏╥)o

🖤 Creepypasta

🖤 Hazbin Hotel

🖤 Helluva Boss

🖤 The Amazing Digital Circus

🖤 The Eltingville Club(Mostly the Epilogue!)

🖤Vocaloid

🖤 Sanrio

🖤 Sonic The Hedgehog

🖤 And a little bit of Pokémon!

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FINALLY, I’m back home. And for sure I’m a bit more pissy and a little emotional, because someone directly poured water onto my shoe which caused me to walk barefoot! UGH, I never been so annoyed because this is one of the main reasons why I don’t go to family events!

Ugh, kinda wish I didn’t go. I’m already: miserable; hot; getting emotional; and overall feel so unwanted. I wish to go back home into my little room that has AC and a place I won’t get burnt by the SUN!

Going to be on Tumblr during this family event. Asks and overall questions are open!

Finally left the house to go see family, and to be honest I’m suffering. I feel so out of place with my own family (¬_¬”)

Btw, this is how I genuinely play my video games. I got this adorable baby infront of my screen all the time! I don’t have the heart to move him :<

Haiii!! And no I haven’t, I only saw clips! It looks really cool when I first saw some of the bits, mostly loving the colors and the artstyle <3

Gotten two new games for my ps5! Got Black Ops and Black Ops ll! Can’t wait to be nostalgic while gaming!

I don’t get why my family always leave me alone with the dogs every single time, like don’t get me wrong I don’t complain to them since they have stuff to do but these damn animals are becoming so draining to the point I’m I just want to scream and cry or even hurt myself out of pure frustration. But of course I just have to suck it up because they’re DOGS, they depend on someone to take care of them!

I hate being such a downer, I’m sorry that I can’t help but feel so unmotivated or even depressed. I feel like I shouldn’t be around family or in general with anyone. I feel so tired with everything around me. I just hate to feel like this, no matter what I do.

Anyway

Besides marvel rivals do u play any other games? What’s your favorite genre? :3

Hii!! And that’s okay anon! And Rivals isn’t at all the only game I play, but I also enjoy Minecraft; Sims4; and The Outlast Trials!.. If I have to choose my favorite genre, it has to be Psychology Horror! <3

I want attention, my asks have been on for sometime. Give me some anon asks, I want to answer some questions or something. That’ll be very fun and interesting!

I’ve always struggled with intimacy, it’s hard to be normal if I’m with someone that’s basically a male. I never really had this problem at all if I’m with a woman, but every time I’m with a man I feel so disgusted after any sort of physical intimacy. It’s annoying, like why can’t I be normal? I just want to be cuddled and safe, that never leads to sexual intimacy… But every time I feel like it’s my job to satisfy them no matter what, despite my own comfort. Why am I like this? It makes me sick, mentally and emotionally. I just want a warm hug with someone who would love and accept a mess like me. （┬┬＿┬┬）