as you all have probably noticed, i disappeared for a while. it’s not that i didn’t want to be on tumblr because i really do, but everything kept falling apart and its so hard for me to cope with things that i can’t control most of the time. hence why i stopped coming on here because i really didn’t have the motivation or energy to reply to anyone or do anything.
I probably laid on my couch and cried more than seven months out of this year. I was in months long depression and nothing felt fun anymore. Talking to people took too much out of me and I quickly realized that most of the people i talked to were people that only texted me when i talked to them first. Which tbh is really draining because i always checked up on others but hardly anyone does the same for me so that was a wake up call for sure.
But on a brighter note, i plan to start writing again and i’ll probably only write for a select few characters since they are my home. I also plan to add in new characters that i love such as Nikolai from God of Fury.
Another bright note, i found my faith again. I found light and love which has brought me out of the darkness i was in. After months of working on myself since my grandma passed in March, I finally became a minister! That doesn’t mean i’m holier or better than anyone on here but it means that i’m doing better than i was before. Finding love and light in religion has helped me so much and i’m so thankful to have found it.
Since there’s so much controversy with the christian faith and it being demonized, i want you to know that this is a safe space for ANYONE! I do not care what sexual orientation you identify with, or if you are trans, I’ll still love and will talk with you. I’m not the type of christian who turns their backs on someone because of what the other person believes. I believe religion is a beautiful thing and whatever you believe in is perfectly fine. So, like i said, this is a safe space for everyone.
I hope each and every one of you are doing good and if you ever want to talk with me about anything i’m more than happy to. Have a blessed day and hopefully i can pump out some fics soon 💗
