butterflies rising

just let your heart be fire and let your soul be wild and let your spirit glow.

what if… when it feels like your path has no reference, your soul is the reference.

dear sensitive & passionate soul…

you have a heart that changes shape when something moves you… so let all of the things you feel so deeply move you. you are fire and wild and art and love and sugar and soul… so let the ache in your heart become a delicate rage that moves you.

me & my friends are watching the Empire State Couple's Netflix documentary & there's a part where Vanya is talking about him making her feel safe while they're doing all these crazy things climbing together, and he says…

“the safer she was, the more creative she became”

and y'all, if that isn't some kind of metaphor for being able to trust someone.

never settle, because… you deserve someone who isn't afraid of your sparks… the kind of connection where their fire is drawn to your fire.

never settle, because… you have a beautiful heart, babygirl, and it's meant to know a beautiful love

never settle, because…

you are more than enough to hold someone’s full attention.

so don’t you dare settle for anyone who tries to come to you with theirs divided.

i don't want AI-created things…

i want poetry & art & music that comes from love & passion & pain. i want something that came from someone overcoming something they didn't think they'd survive… it lets me know that i can do the same.

i want something that started in a soul and traveled through a heartbeat and flowed through human veins.

i wanna feel something from someone else who felt. something. i don't want soulless things.

but you're so butterfly-shaped… so why are you not being a butterfly? tell me why are you not stretching out your wings?

there she was… so beautiful and free

this Summer… if there is anything i want to be… i want to be the most passionate version of myself… to feel and feel… and follow what i feel, and inhale love and be love, and exhale any fear… and this version of me won't apologize for having a heart on fire

there's a certain trauma in the girls whose dads cheated on their mamas… especially if you knew it in some way when you were young… you got trust issues before you even had a chance to try to love, and from the man who was supposed to show you how to be loved… there's just a certain trauma in a girl whose daddy was the first man to break her heart.

you’re a wild butterfly finding your way… just a girl growing wings

let's lose time.

it's maybe one of my favorite feelings ever… my friends and i call it “suspension.”

it's when an experience you're in creates an energy between you and another person, or a few friends, or a whole group… and that conversation, or that night, or that experience, or that moment you're in with them just becomes all there is, and you just lose time together. vibes & presence & shared energy & connection… just feeling alive.

the way that energy can just feel infinite… i'm pretty sure it's some kind of magic.

This Summer… i hope you have a “breathe easy” summer.

like, i hope the universe shows you how you can be loved into growth instead of having to be broken into it…

because you've already learned so much of how strong you've grown through darkness… but i think you're made of flowers; how you bloom when there's light on your skin

when you love passionately, and you're fiercely loyal, and you believe in soulmates… but you're also fiercely independent, and love being on your own journey, and one of your biggest fears is losing yourself in a relationship.

In June…

a wish for you under this wild blue moon… i hope your next days bring in life like summer, like light, like warmth… and that you let good things come to you, and you let them fall on you without a fight.

what if life is holding something so beautiful for you… i hope you let that be true and you let yourself believe in the beautiful as it unfolds all around you… i hope you let it all make you feel so free.