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i use this account mostly to talk about lesbian related issues (i,e. me yearning) or to vent about my life as i have a lot of anxiety, and that helps me deal with it. i am also neurodivergent so please be patient with me and use tone tags if possible.
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warning: mentions of dysphoria and body weight problems, read at your own risk. this is mostly a vent.
i hate a lot of things about my body.
for starters, my face is too round and all my facial features are extremely feminine. my hips are wide. i don't have the money to constantly cut my hair in the way i like at the salon, so it is always too big for my own liking.
and then we have my size. i have always been big since i was a kid, but in the past year i gained so much weight and that has made me even more self conscious about how i look. because when you are bigger, everything is different. and again, i can't afford a gym so i don't even have muscle like other butches, for example. this makes me so incredibly self-conscious...
it is so hard to find clothing. to even find myself inside my own style. i am at my best when i look as alternative as i can, but i can't find any inspo on my style on people who look like me because being a fat alternative butch is not deemed "aesthetic" enough, so obviously there are not a lot of visual references for me to think of, at least not at the top of my head.
buying clothes is hard. even second hand. there is rarely anything that fits me, much less anything that fits me AND makes me look... like me. i have been using the same jorts everyday since may whenever i go out because that is truly all i have.
and i know my butchness always needs to make sense for myself, but i am so tired of butches always being depicted as skinny and "twinky" or as extremely muscular. there is obviously nothing wrong with that, but where are the other butches with other types of bodies?
it's like i can't find myself. i can't find myself in the mirror nor in what it's supposed to be my community.
i wish my body was different. thinner.
i my features were different. more sharp.
I want to love my body, i truly want. i want to feel beautiful and handsome and atractive. i want to look in the mirror and recognize my own reflection as a part of myself, not at something that just... is there. i want to smile and be confident. i want to like the pictures my friends take off le. i want to like the pictures i take WITH them. i want to go out and dress in a way that i like.
please be in love with me, just a little bit. please think about me just how i think about you.
i always had such a complicated relationship with physical contact, but asking for your touch its just so... easy. your hugs are comforting, my hand slips and automatically wants to hold yours, my head immediately rests on your shoulder and i could spend hours like that. in your embrace. i could hear you talk for ours, feel your perfume four ours, look at your lips and wonder how it would be like to kiss you...
please be I love with me, just a little bit. so i can do this forever. i need to want you forever and i need you to want me forever.
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please whisper praise on my ear as you watch me make a full of myself. tell me how good I look, how good i am. please watch me and i ruin myself just for your entertainment, tell me what to do with your voice.
I need to eat pussy in a pathetically subby way NOW!!! I need to be on my knees with my head being pushed closer to their cunt THIS INSTANT!!! like and subscribe if you agree
im sick and the doctor prescribed a mean femme finger fucking my throat while cooing sweet nothings in my ear does anyone know where i can find one of those? are those over the counter??
please be in love with me. just a little. please think about me even 1% of what i think about you. i can deal with that, just feel... something. even if just a little. just a little tingle in your chest. love me, even if just a little.
just enough to let me in, to let me love you. i want to love you, I want to show you how much i care for you. I need it. I need you. I love you.
just love me a little, please. just enough t to be able to be with you... to tell you. to show you.
please be in love with me. because I am in love with you.
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you ever want someone so bad you start acting so stupid like why am i thinking abt you at 4 am i should be sleeping.... but i can't stop thinking about how i will see you in less than a week... I AM A GROWN ADULT. I SHOULDN'T BE ACTING LIKE A TEENAGER!!!!
