the last helicopter had just flown out of vietnam

the thing about being so into top gun is that i dont even want to be doing this. i disagree with the existence of this film politically ethically etc and i dont think its something that should exist. i didnt even like it when i watched it for the first time. and i thought top gun maverick was bad when i saw it for the first time. and then i became crazy and once i was in hyperfixation mindset it became impossible to even pick out the technical/form issues i had with the films. i know i had issues with them but i cant identify them anymore when i watch them. like it genuinely is some sort of virus thats infected my brain. i know i didn't like these movies but now i cant handle going without them. i have a virus..

i did buy a nice skirt and a nice new pair of jeans today even though both of them made me feel bad about gaining 15lbs since grad school. but they fit me and feel comfortable and if i manage to look past all the body dysmorphia stuff i think they look nice. so a win i suppose even though they like 50% made me go yay awesome new clothes that look nice and 50% made me go wow my body looks freakish and i should die. but im trying to focus on the good part! so its a win.

i will probably head back soon anyways bc this pub dgaf about saudi arabis v uruguay they arent even playing the audio for the game

if kier starmer wanted to solve real issues he would get it so u could buy alcohol from the grocery store past 10pm

i just cant deal with my parents acting like im some crazy alcoholic for wanting to be in the pub to watch the world cup after 10pm. like well yes! im 25 and im on vacation! i dont want to be in bed yet! i would like to have a pint and watch the game!

tried to watch valkyrie and the sound mix (or at the very least the sound mix on the torrent i got) was so bad that i think i have to just wait to watch it when i get home. which leaves oblivion and jack reacher 2 to watch on holiday. not hugely excited about either i should have done the smart thing and watched his mediocre stuff first so i could have the good stuff left. but alas.

please somebody win the next game im tired of draws its boring to me.