what the hell is going on

i’m so sick of having panic attacks

i’m already panicking just thinking about food i’m possibly going to have to eat on saturday

hearing my therapist agree that my father is emotionallly abusive is so validating honestly

it shouldn’t hurt this bad to just be alive

not only do i have to deal with my awful mental health right now but i also have to deal with my awful physical health, i’m not having a good time

i tired to tell one of my therapists that i had issues with overspending and she took that as me saying just i enjoy shopping and now one of her things she thinks i should do to make myself feel better is shop... 🙃

everywhere i turn my ex (i think?) fp keeps getting brought up, it started just being irl but now it’s in my fucking dreams as well to the point where i genuinely don’t know how i feel about her because it’s constantly changing again but i do know i’m tired of thinking about it and i’m tired of feeling things

it’s tiring living with my brain 24/7, i just want a break