queen b ♛

I’ve got a bad case of the 3:00 am guilts - you know, when you lie in bed awake and replay all those things you didn’t do right? Because, as we all know, nothing solves insomnia like a nice warm glass of regret, depression and self-loathing.

Do you ever wonder whether people would like you more or less if they could see inside you?

Because, if you could love someone, and keep loving them, without being loved back … then that love had to be real. It hurt too much to be anything else.

You can love someone so much. But if they don’t want to be saved, nothing will save them. Not even love.

I don’t ask anyone to stay Not anymore The phone may tremble in my hand But never again Will I beg for someone to love me

I stopped explaining myself when I realized,

I have too many romantic fantasies and they make me sad.

- Buy lace underwear and model it around at home. You’re a goddess, own it. - Realize the fact that if somebody can’t see your virtues doesn’t it mean you don’t have them. - Pamper yourself. Fill the bathtub with hot water, throw in a bath bomb, jump in, play some music and enjoy. Exfoliate your skin, wash your hair, use a hair mask. Don’t dare to leave the bathroom till you’ve polished every single inch of your body. Try to polish your soul too. - Remember situations you faced in the past. Realize they’re not a big deal anymore. That bad anxiety you had two months ago suddenly seem so small you might just want to laugh for being so silly, and now it’s over all those tears you cried are the most pointless thing ever. This will happen over and over again, so next time you face a problem remember in a year from now it will be insignificant. - Go for a walk on your own. Walk aimlessly without a finish line. Come back home when you’re tired, no need to hurry. - Doodle. Maybe you think you’re doing not so great at living but your watercolors skills are still on point. - Buy yourself flowers. This one needs no explanation. - Clean bed sheets are always a good idea. - Stare at yourself in a mirror after a long nap and admire how glowing, beautiful and dreamy your face looks. Naps work wonders. - In fact, stare at yourself on a mirror daily. Each time compliment on something. Maybe today you like your hair but don’t enjoy the shape of your lips, but that’s ok because tomorrow you’ll be delighted at how cute your smile is even tho your hair might be a mess. Learn to love you. - Bake cookies just to eat with your fingers the remaining cookie dough. Everybody knows that’s the best part of baking. - Forgive yourself.

I hope you find someone you can’t live without. I really do. And I hope you never have to know what it’s like to have to try and live without them.