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You have my deepest gratitude for protecting me. But calling me your spouse... Do not address me in such a manner. It is not to my liking. Forgive me. I thought... Never again. Because... you have never asked.

Hello, Jane.

I'm sorry for leaving without saying goodbye. But I didn't think I'd be strong enough to walk out of your life if you were still awake. The reason I had to leave this letter behind is because there's something I absolutely have to tell you. But I'm not good with words, which is why I have to write down like this.

The reason I chose to leave you isn't because I killed Put. I didn't do it. If you won't believe me, I understand, because everything I've done to you has been awful. And that is exactly the reason why I'm leaving you. I want you to be able to smile again like the old Jane, the one before you ever knew me. You might not trust me anymore, but there is one thing I want to reassure you I have never once lied to you.

The part where I told you that you are special to me. You often think of yourself as ordinary, but your are the most extraordinary ordinary person in the world to me. So, I want to tell you ten reasons that make me think you are so special.

First, everyone who knows me either wants something from me or looks at me like a demon. But just looking into your eyes, I knew you were the first person who didn't judge me from our first meeting.

Second, the way you get nervous when dancing with me is so cute. No matter how many dozens of times you step on my feet, I don't mind.

Third, you changed my mind about a lot of things. You made me believe that this world still has people who want to strive and do things on their own.

Fourth, I never liked taking photos, but you made me willing to take photos with you. I wanted to have photos of us together, wanted to declare that you belong to me alone.

Fifth, I don't care how anyone else looks at me, except for you. You were willing to fight with your friends for me, so I wanted to prove myself to you and your family.

Sixth, you said I make you happy when we're together. I'm happy when I'm with you too.

Seventh, you made me realize that things made from the heart are much more important than countless luxury items. So I wanted to make something simple but made from the heart for you to eat.

Eighth, you worry about me and take care of me, both by bringing me Chinese medicine and helping tend to my wounds.

Ninth, you were willing to step into my world, even though it was painful. In the past, I dragged you into my life, but I never tried to step into yours. So, I fully intended to try and learn, and I was determined to do it. But I guess I started too late.

Last reason, I once told you that the rule of being together is that you shouldn't be too emotional. But actually, you being emotional is a good thing, I just wanted to see you become a bit stronger. You've never been selfish at all. You always ask for everything for the sake of others.

I'm the one who has been selfish, back when we made our contract and I asked for you to belong to me alone. In reality, I was just afraid of losing you, but I really didn't know what to do. So I used the method that used to work.

I'm sorry, Jane. I know I wasn't right. And the thing I'm going to do for you is to willingly step out of your life. I won't ever come back to this condo again. But whenever you miss this place, you already have the keycard. You can always come here, okay?

Si quieres ayudar a los damnificados aquí te dejo información:

Puedes ayudar desde el exterior en la Cruz Roja:

You can donate here:

Fundación PLAN Colombia

Colombian Red Cross

Monetary donations — Colombian Red Cross:

https://www.cruzrojacolombiana.org/

https://ayuda.cruzrojacolombiana.org/emergencia-colombia-terremoto

More national channels:

https://www.bancodealimentos.org.co/donaciones-hoy-min/

https://plan.org.co/quiero-ayudar/sos-choco/

Here are all the direct links to help that I could find. If you know of a major organization like the Red Cross that would usually send aid to these situations, they'll likely have a page up no more than a day or two after I post this(August 10th), but right now I'm only linking to pages that have donation links specifically to help with search and rescue/aiding survivors for this disaster. The charities are:

Convoy of Hope

Catholic Relief Services

DirectRelief

UNICEF USA

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