He/Him

This guy i like is so cute but I don’t think he likes me the same way i like him. I wanna move in with him and start a life with him but it feels like all he cares about is sexual stuff :/

19-20 days is my curse i swear. I can never seem to make it past 19/20 days. I feel like such a failure but the adrenaline feels so good.

I want to curl into a ball and cry. Why am i so expendable to people? I wish i was as important to someone as they are to me. I want someone to be obsessed with talking to me just like i’m obsessed to be talking to them. I want someone to remember the small details about me and have those things constantly remind them of me. I wish they’d wonder how my day is going and if i’m thinking of them. I wish someone needed me like i need them.

GUYS AFTER 8 YEARS I THINK I FOUND MY BIOLOGICAL BROTHER???? MY MOM KEPT ME FROM CONTACTING HIM (and his mom did the same 🙃) BUT I FOUND HIM??? HOW DO I REACH OUT WITHOUT BEING AWKWARD? PLEASE HELP.

I have somewhat severe sensory issues to the point where i refuse to take my socks off when i walk around my house BUT TONIGHT I DID IT. I was so happy for some reason!!!

Today was one of the hardest days in my journey to being like fully mentally stable. I won’t go into detail but there was so many heartbreaking things that happened today and the entire time i just wanted to go home and relapse. When i finally got home i just sorta sat on the floor and cried, then i called up my best friend (in hopes that like she could get my mind off things) and it lowkey works. Things get better guys, it just takes time 💗💗

11 WEEKS!!!! (idc if it’s getting annoying, i love repeating numbers)

I HAVE BEEN CLEAN FOR 10 WEEKS. THATS ALMOST 3 MONTHS?!?!!!!!! OH MY GOD. I used to not be able to make it past 20 days BUT NOW IM AT 72?!!!! IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF.

Life just gets worse and worse doesn’t it.

I really wanna stay clean since my 2 months is coming up but it’s so hard. This will be the longest i’ve gone without cvtt1ng in a while so i don’t wanna mess it up but i also don’t wanna deal with things without a vice.

I’ve been doing soooo better lately and hopefully today is gonna be a good day. Not just for me but for everyone!! I love y’all 💗💗💖

Y’all i’ve been going through it. Earlier this week I convinced myself that nothing was real and I was secretly in a coma being tested on by scientists and now I think I’m the next Van Gogh (and i’m not just talking about his art career 🙃)

YALLLLL. It’s probably old news to you guys but screaming loud asf into a pillow is so much better than relapsing imo!!!! Only works if you’re home alone tho :/